Phil POV
Of course Dan denied coming with us. I am a freak and a nobody. I usually don't care about other people's opinion but I would be lying to myself If I didn't admit that I somewhat cared about Dan's opinion. Something about him trigger me to be his friend and get to know him. The only answer to that was that we are working together. I looked at my food that was right in front of me. I didn't notice PJ, who was staring at me with a worried look.
"Why so quiet? You are usually talking about something. You have so many interesting facts about everything" PJ noticed I was feeling a little down.
"Sorry, I just wonder why can't I be a normal person. I feel like I am so awkward and weird that people dislike me or avoid me? Why are you even my friend?" I started questioning our friendship. Maybe he feels sorry for me or something, why else would he?
"Phil, you are an amazing person and I think you are just as special as a diamond, probably even more! You are really rare to find, yet you are beautiful. You have the most wonderful personality ever. You are amazing, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I wonder why girls aren't all over you, if I was a girl I totally would be all up on you and once I had you I would never let you go." PJ reached out and put his hand on top of mines. "Now tell me, what else is in your mind, you can talk to me about anything"
Then I remember something about myself. I never had been in love. "Hey, can I tell you something?" I looked at PJ looking for approval
"Of course, didn't you just hear my speech?" PJ laughed
"I have been confused about my sexuality since I was a teenager. I don't understand what I like. I dated girls but I don't feel attracted to them. I am not sure if its because I haven't found out the right girl." I let out my feeling to PJ he seems to care.
"Have you ever considered the opposite sex? For example, how would you feel if I started flirting with you? I started holding your hand and take you out on cute dates." PJ smirked at me
"PJ! Stop that" I felt my face go all red." I definitely only love you as a friend even thought all that sounds like...fun." I winked at him
"Omg Phil. You tell me to stop but here you are winking at me!" PJ joked.
"Our feelings are mutual. I think the same way you do. You are special to me but in a friend way"
I sighed and decided to give him an answer to his actual question about if I ever consider guys as an option "I don't know, I never really thought about it because I am already a freak and a weirdo, now adding gay to this list would be too much but I am so confused"
"Why are you thinking about this now? Did something trigger it?" PJ said, taking a bite out of his meal.
"Not exactly, it just popped out in my head" I wasn't sure if that was actually the correct reason but I decided not to say anything. I then looked at PJ who has a weird expression. I felt like he was about to say something that's been on his mind for a while. I was about to ask him what's up, but before I could, he spoke up.
"Phil I am Bi" PJ then blurted out, looking down at his now finished meal.
"Oh" that's all I managed to say. I could tell that he really wanted to come out. He has probably been holding it for a while. Then I smiled "that's okay, I am glad at least you understand your sexuality. Since when do you know about this?"
"I been knowing since I was in high school. I secretly had a boyfriend, but he broke up with me because he didn't have the guts to come out. He claimed that it was just a phase and that he was going to "fix himself" and like girls instead. I personally don't think it's a phase, but I told him I wished him the best and moved on with my life" PJ sighed and nodded his head "Maybe you should be a little more open minded Phil. Think outside the box and don't block your feelings anymore. Accept them. Embrace them," PJ advised me.
"You will find someone who deserves you. I will support you no matter what ok! And Thanks, I will, " I smiled as I grabbed PJ's hand in a friendly way.
Then I felt my phone vibrate
***New message***
Unknown number- Hey, this is Dan. I just wanted to make sure you had my number and you had mines.
Phil -Hey Dan! I got it (:
Dan- you are probably still having dinner with PJ So enjoy!
Phil- we were just leaving actually. It was a nice dinner. You guys should had joined us!
Dan- sorry we missed out, but next time, for sure!
Phil- you said it! Anyways i was wondering if Friday can you be at the intuition at 2:30 so I can show you around?
Dan- Yup that's the plan! I will see you in a couple of days Okay?
Phil- Okay (:
Reading that made me smile. I put my phone back in my pocket
"Why are you smiling?" PJ asked as we were heading to his car
"I am just accepting and embracing my feelings like you said" I smiled at PJ "Lets go home"
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