I Hate That I Love You (Beau Brooks fan fic)

Chapter 4 - School Work, Or...

Hello my sassy readers. Sorry for the slight delay but Ive been catching up on work and stuff for school, well, mainly homework cause I never do it and I leave it till the last minute. Anyway, Chapter 4 is up. I hope you like it.

Enjoy xx

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We sit stationary on his couch, silence filling the emtpy space around us. I need to cough, like badly, but I dont want to break the awkwardness and make it worse. My throat becomes scratchy and unsuttle, it feels as though its blocking my breathing passage allowing no air in or out. My book is covering my face cutting off my vision towards him, hopefully he cant see my blushing cheeks. For a brief second I Iower my book and let myself see the boy who was less than a couple of centimeters distance away from me and at that brief second somehow he had the same idea. Our eyes meet and his rich chocolate brown eyes stare me down freezing my body. 

"Uh, can I use your bathroom?" I clear my dry throat

"Of course. Second door on the right" he points me to the hallway and i stand up and leave the silence of the room.

I lock the bathroom door and cough. I cough so hard that I almost barf up a lung. I spit out the saliva sitting in the back of my throat and pull out my phone.

'Taya, Hrlp mw?' I unsteadily rattle my phone in my hands not being able to text properly. In total, what I felt, urgency I dont double check for mistakes and send some sort of morse code to Tayla.

'Who's Taya? Is she your new friend? Best friend? Dont you like me anymore?'

'*Tayla, Help Me!' I correct my spelling this time and send an understandable message of help.

'Oh haha. Aw hun, whats wrong?' 

'I'm at Jye's house and I don't wanna be here anymore'

'Bitch, just get up and walk out'

'It's not that easy, I think I like him?'

'...'

'HELP!'

'Ok jeez, Just tell him how you feel. He might be feeling the same way as you'

'Ok thanks. Bye :)'

Bye hun, good luck :*'

I shove my phone back in my skirt pocket and flush the toilet making it sound as though I actually went. I wet the ends of my fingers and wipe them on my skirt and walk out of the bathroom. 

"You were in there a while. You all good?" Jai peeks a little smile

"Yeah" I take a seat on the couch and reposition myself so the distance between us was farther apart. 

"Good. So should we get started then?" he hands me back my book. I get a shock through my upper body as our hands accidentally touch within the process of doing so.

"Are you sure you're alright?" he worryingly places his hand on my lower thigh sending a sock through the rest of my body.

"Jye..."

"Jai..."

"Jai, I need to tell you something. I think I..." I get cut off by a boy who prances through the front door. He was dressed in a fitted tank top and gym shorts. He dumps his gym bag on the floor and pulls off his 'Nikes' and chucks them at Jai. 

"Dont be a dick" he flicks them onto the ground like a pansy and scrunches up his face.

"Cant help it Bro, its just who I am" he gives Jai a cheeky wink.

"So aren't you gonna introduce me to your pretty friend?" he continues

"Oh uh, Beau this is Hattie, Hattie this is Beau" he chucks me a gorgeous smile and holds out his hand. I shake it and smile back nervously and look down after making eye contact with him. 

How is it that the 'Hattie Aiken' is getting nervous around a couple of boys I had never encountered in my whole schooling years? 

Beau walks out of the room leaving me and Jai by ourselves again.

"So what were you gonna say?" he continues our conversation from before. 

"I... I better get going now. I have to be home soon" I collect all my stuff and chuck it into my bag.

"Really? Cant you stay a little longer?" Jai asks in disappointment, it sounded.

"I wish I could" I pout my lips and start making my way towards the front door.

He stands up from the couch and follows closely behind. I reach for the handle when he grasps my hand in his. The uncontrollable shivers take over my body once again, I never want them to go away. He lets go of my hand and lets it dangle lifelessly by my side. He looks down at me, down into my eyes. We stare in silence and intensity. He leans in closer, closer, closer. His plush pink lips brush against mine.

"I gotta go" I break apart from our moment and open the door and leave. 

Guilt sinks in as I start walking away in the direction of my home. I was waiting for him to run after me or shamelessly yell my name from down the street... I hear nothing, I feel no one. I guess what happens in movies, stay in movies, right? 

---------TAYLA'S POV----------

I flop onto my bed and curl around my giant teddy bear I received when I was a little girl. My body was exhausted, my eyes drooped. I lay my head deep in my teddys chest, the soft fur was tickling my cheek and neck. I was about to close my eyes and have an early night when I hear dink, dink... dink on my window. I groan and pull myself up to see what or who was bothering me. 

"Hattie?" I open my window and let her climb through.

"Why didnt you just use the front door?" I ask grasping her in a hug, it looked like she had been crying.

"Im fine, thanks for asking" she snarls sarcastically and sits on my bed.

"How was it at Jyes..."

"Its Jai..."

"Jais?"

"He tried kissing me" another tear rolls down her cold cheek

"And...?" I emphasise her to continue with her story with enthusiam wanting to know more.

"I, Uh, I ran away and left him. Im such an idiot, I shouldve let him kiss me. Ugh..." she groans in denial and frustration.

"Aw Hun" I crawl up beside her and lay her down on my lap. I stroke my hands through her hair.

Almost, Almost is never enough,

So close to being in love,

If I would have known that you wanted me,

The way I wanted you,

Then maybe we wouldnt be two worlds apart,

But right here in each others arms,

And we almost, we almost knew what love was,

But almost is never enough

We harmonise is sync. The perfect song to sing to in a situation like this...

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Hey Guys. Yep, so chapter 4 is done! And yes, the lyricsc were to the song "almost is never enough by Ariana Grande and Nathan Sykes. I only chose that song because I am in LOVE with it at the moment. Please Vote/Comment on what you think, ily xx <3

- Claudia xx