Forbidden Secret (Student/Teacher)

Hurtful Words Hurt

Warning: Tissues well needed for this chapter if you guys are emotional peeps, because I did.

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Chapter 23

"Let go of me now!" I yelled, yanking my hand off and untangling myself from him but no he wouldn't let me go and set me down still holding me in his strong grip.

"Who the fuck did this to you?" His voice gritted through him and looked at it in horror closely.

"No one did."

"Don't lie to me!"

"It's none of your concern. Now. Let. Me. Go." I gritted back strongly holding my gaze at him, watching each and every of my words.

"Aria, who did this to you dammit!"

"I DID! I did it to myself!"

As soon as those words came out Ezra's grip loosened on me with his eyes fixated on mines, exchanging intense glares and worried expressions.

"W-What?" He whispered in confusion. "I did this Ezra," I said shoving away. "I did this to myself, these three scars were done by me. Nobody else!" Reaching over the sleeve of my top and pulled it closer to him.

His eyes showed disbelief and immediately after I confessed, his eyes spoke softly remaining calm and moved away from me as I walked over to the living room to sit on the couch.

"Why Aria?" Ezra muttered again sitting beside me with my hand brushing against my forehead in frustration.

Don't tell him Aria, don't! He doesn't need to know!

"I just did Ezra. I just did." I croaked under my breath, playing with the ends on my hair. He just sighed leaning towards me and moved the stray hairs away from my cheeks while my waterline glistened faintly as the sight in front of me soon enough became blurry.

"Aria, please talk to me."

No Ezra I can't talk to you, I just can't but I wish I could. Every part of me was aching for me to come out to Ezra about everything, but irresistible parts of me lingered around the five letter word. Trust. Whether I did or not trust him gave me chills through my body and each time I think about it I felt like I'm hurting him, badly.

I remained quiet unable to use the fiction of my voice to talk to him while the gaze Ezra gave me burns through me trying to tell him to get out. "Please" He whispered once more grabbing my right hand, patterning circles on top.

"Ezra, please now is not the time." My voice replied in a soft whisper at him but it felt unfair to be taking my hidden anger out on him, but I just needed him to go. Go before I completely break down.

"Now is the perfect time Aria. Now is." He stated the obvious in the concentrated silence looking up to the ceiling, tightening my eyes to drop the couple of tears stored inside me while his hands cupped my cheeks and brushed them away lightly.

No! No sympathy Aria.

"I don't want to talk about it!" I glared angrily and yelled again interrupting Ezra's sudden comfort and got up from my seat.

"Why are you pushing me away again Aria! Why do you always do this?!" Frustration crossed his voice as he grabbed me by the shoulders and forcefully made me face him, unknowingly did he know tears were now sprawling down my face.

"Because I don't want your comfort. I don't want your fucking help Ezra. I-I just want you to Leave. Me. Alone. I can't take it anymore Ezra. I can't take it, everything I'm doing is hurting you and everything that you don't know will add you to it. You will never be able to unknow to what I tell you-"

"-then tell me Aria, tell me what's so tragic in your life that supposably puts me at risk!" Ezra questioned at me balling his fists together in anger.

"I-I can't! Why won't you just-"

"-what? Leave you alone. Go. Get out. What Aria?! What? should I leave when I'm standing in front of the girl that I care so deeply about, huh. Why the fuck should I leave! Aria I care for you more than I've ever cared about someone and I fucking like you more than anyone. But you always push me away and it kills me that I can't do anything to change that!" My heart was beating faster and faster constantly through each and every words that poured out of him and I stared at him in shock almost falling.

And my words seemed to break him all of a sudden and almost reacted like I'd have cut through him. I flinched at his words and dipped my head down and shifted as I came into realization that I have hurt him. Ezra being angry or upset, now that's something that I'd never want to see - or its what I'm seeing.

I wiped my cheeks lightly with the palms of my hands and looked back up at him. "I never asked you too." I choked back my words and covered my mouth with a small sob parting between me, backing away from Ezra as he tried to come forward to what I think - console me.

His eyes again fell to an extent and his eyes darkened immediately, taking a step closer to me without any pre - caution gazing at me with nothing but guilt.

"Aria, do you trust me?" He muttered under this breath as I hitched in the one words that made me cold all over.

I remained silent, unable to say anything and just stiffened under his gaze, looking towards the floor in no emotion. I heard a slight scoff come from him and saw that he moved away from me, now facing his back to me as I caught him brushing his hand through his hair.

"Do you trust me?" He repeated again with himself in front of me. Don't trust him Aria, don't! He'll tell everyone. He won't treat you the same, and he'll end up leaving you as the rest of them because of your mistake.

Do it Aria! Do it turn off all your emotions and don't feel anything for him!

"NO! I don't trust you Ezra. I DON'T TRUST YOU!" I shouted at him through gritted teeth now seething each breath I was holding as I forced the words that would hurt him the most as the horror he returned to me resulted in my heart splitting into two.

"Because whatever we had going on here was just for your amusement right Aria, and it's just always been about what you damn feel, nothing else matters!" He said as anguish boiled through him and within minutes he walked away from me trailing towards the door and twisted the doorknob of the front door slowly saying the last words I thought I'd ever hear from him.

"You know, it sucks, because my biggest fear was me falling for you, and here's me thinking you fell for me too. But I was wrong."

And nothing was said but the sound of the door shutting and the small sobs escaping from me.

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Hey guys, how are you!?

Yes another long ish chapter or maybe not teehee...

Aria not trusting Ezra, ouch huh...this chapter just made me cry so much just writing it so I hope y'all cried too..

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