Jordans pov**
OK so it's been about 3 weeks since I told the guys about my bipolar their all good about it cam reminds me about my tablets in the morning and their all being so loving but I'm going to see jc and Alex today I miss them. A lot I really do but I can never get round there cuz kians always there but today he's not so I can see my brother and best friend for once YAY.
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I get to the boys house. I walk up to the door and knock then the door flings open shown the happiest Alex in the world. I walk through the door put my penny bored down and went to the kitchen to find jc with his back to me. I turn back to Alex and put my finger to my lips to tell him to shush then I put my hands on jcs eyes and he flips out turns around and his eyes go wide with extent.
"Hey jords I missed you" jc said still squeezing me eventually letting go.
"Yeah you have NOOO idea" Alex said looking at the floor. I walked over to Alex and hugged him longer then I did jc I missed my brother so much but we've both been super busy so ya know It was kinda hard to see each other all the time.
About 3 hours later were just sat in the kitchen chattin drinking coffee and catching up then suddenly I here the front door open and close I know exactly who it is....Kian. I look at the boys with wide eyes and they look nervous cuz I'm angry kian walks in the kitchen and starts to talk "Hey guys..." then cuts himself off as he sees me " jordan" he says confused "yeah sup kian" I say trying to soke up all the orkwardness "um not much how you been" he says like nuthings wrong "Nuthing really I live with magcon now their going on tour soon Cameron asked me to go I'm still thinking about it cuz um I don't know how I'll be taking my pills so I might not go" I said kinda looking down and at jc and Alex at the same time if that's even possible. "What pills are you talking about last time I saw you, you didn't need them" he said looking at me confused I rolled my eyes and said "so these two twats didn't tell you then" he just looked at me and said "well why don't you tell me now your here you should be the one to tell me anyways" I just looked at him and raised my eyebrows "excuse me I don't have to tell you fuck all but since u demanded I tell you why not. I suffer with bipolar, serious depression and social axiety and it's my life so I should need to tell you this stuff but then again you caused my depression so I guess you should know that park" I said turning back to jc and Alex getting up off the bar stool saying bye and grabbing my purse and phone.
I walked to the front door not knowing what time it was and when I got outside it was really dark and I couldn't ride in the dark so I rang Cameron but there was no answer I tried nash, no answer I tried galinsky no fucking answer gerr these boys ima kill em. Then I rang johnson he answer
M: hey jj do you think you can come pick me up from Alexes please kinda dark and I rid here.
Jj: um..yeah sure I'll be there in 5
Me: k thanks jj
Jj: welcome see ya Ina min
And with that he hung up I smiled to myself and sat on the curb out side Alexes house then I hurd the door open and close be hind me
" Hey I'm sorry jordan I didn't know. .." I cut him off
"Shut up kian like you care never cared in the first pace now please leave me the fuck alone" I said kinda harshly but I honestly didn't care he put me trough he'll.
"WTF jords I miss you like crazy I didn't mean to do that to you everything I here a song that reminds me of you I cry"
"Wow a song that's it kian" I laugh to myself a little "you think that's bad try this. I cryed myself to sleep for 5 months straight I cut my wrist because I felt worthless, I thaught about suicide, I had to go to a LOT of therapy sessions and I got put into a l mental hospital because I was a danger to myself I was in that place for 2 weeks. And do you know what the best part of it was. YOU MADE ME THAT WAY SO DON'T YOU EVER TRY SAYING YOU CRIED I WENT THROUGH FUCKING HE'LL BECAUSE OF YOU NOW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE BEFORE I FUCK YOU UP BIG TIME" and with that u burst into tears and then jack came I got in the car he looked at me with concern I just shook my head and look straight ahead. He got the message and just drove.
I guess I fell asleep in the car cuz I felt jack pick me up and carry me to my room and lay me on the bed. He went to leave but I called him.
"Hey jack"
"Yeah jords"
"Will you stay with me please"
"of cause I will"
After about a minuet of silence I fell back asleep in jacks arms I think I'm falling for him let's just hope he feels the same way.
