lonely // junhui

ONE

BEI KUANGSHU is a girl who always hoped for somebody who'll stay beside her but in the end she always gets screwed over. People talk about her and she doesn't have many friends.

Her friends are in China but she had to leave China. She used to be an extroverted person before people started screwing her over.

She felt like an object which was being played with and was okay to hurt and make fun of. She is a person with an opinion who is honest to people when she doesn't like something. Many people bothered that.

Especially the people that she first started to be friends with. One day they started to ignore her like they never knew her. But she wasn't alone, they ignored another girl which she luckily got to know better and they became really good friends. Her name was Hinata.

But they aged and she started concentrating on her studies not talking nor really caring about her friends which she had. She had trust issues when it came to people.

She had told her friends who she first befriended with when she was new at this school that she had a crush on somebody and basically they told everyone, so almost the whole school knew also her crush. Kim Hanbin always was kind to her. Helped her, smiled at her and also liked to sit beside her in class. He was a sweetheart only to shy to ask her out.

When he heard about it he only thought it'd a rumour that was spread by people who disliked her and since he was a shy guy, he didn't confront her and eventually stopped smiling and sitting beside her because he'd only start blushing every time she talked to him.

It would be lie if Kuangshu said she doesn't want to go back to China. She loves China with all her heart and she really missed her family too.

She was talking to her only close person, Hinata, who was the girl that also was ignored. They eventually stopped ignoring them when they noticed that they are smarter and could be a help to them.

Kuangshu was a person with a big heart so she accepted their apology for now. Hinata did too since they thought of it as a childish joke.

People naturally don't want to be alone. It is a feeling everyone has.

Bei Kuangshu was especially afraid. She didn't care how many times she got screwed over, she just wanted to have somebody even if those people were toxic.

Kuangshu and Hinata talked about the homework and Hinata asked her if she could send her the notes because Hinata couldn't copy them.

Kuangshu felt someone staring at her. She was uncomfortable. She looked around a saw a guy, sitting at a table with a group of boys. She noticed that she knew one of the boys because she had maths with him. It was Kim Mingyu. Not the smartest guy in class but a very charming one. A guy who got his grades not by thinking but by charming the teacher.

She smiled at the unknown guy and gave him a little nod. He smiled back as a nice gesture. She continued to talk to Hinata. But wasn't really concentrating on her since she was thinking about the boy she just smiled at.

"Hey, Kuangshu." She felt a tap on her shoulder and turned her head around. It was Kim Hanbin. "Hey, Hanbin." She gave him a little smile. She eventually stopped crushing on him a long time ago since she was really embarrassed with the fact that everyone knew who she liked.

"I, uh, w-wanted to a-ask i-if you h-had the n-n-notes from History c-class?", he asked her and blushed. Hanbin never really stopped crushing on her and was really shy around her.

"Ah, yes, I did. Give me your number and I'll send them to you." She smiled and Hanbin took out a piece of paper where he scribbled down his number. He smiled brightly at her and she smiled back. After that he waved at her and left. He headed for his group of friends. How Kuangshu wished for a group like this.

"Damn, this boy is so in love with you.", Hinata whispered in her ear. She chuckled.

Unlike Kuangshu Hinata was really good friends with the people who usually liked to play with Kuangshu. She was a person who always wanted to open her mouth but just couldn't. Something always stopped Hinata. She couldn't protect Kuangshu and Kuangshu knew. She always felt like Hinata would rather protect her reputation rather than her friend.

"Hey, you know what Baekhyun said the other day?", Hinata asked her. Baekhyun was one of the guys who couldn't stand Kuangshu. When they talk about a topic in class, where they can only have two opinions. Baekhyun has one and Kuangshu the other one. But Kuangshu always ends up having better explanations and finding cons for the other topic. She enjoyed screwing with Baekhyun since he was the one who started actually turning everyone against her.

"He said that I could start being bestfriends with Sehun and then there'll be him, Chanyeol, Jongin and Kyungsoo. And then there'll be me and Sehun and the four of them and everything would be perfect."

Kuangshu stayed silent trying to hide her sadness by not even looking at Hinata. She just sighed and left school since her periods are over.

She entered the apartment she had. She lived alone. She wanted to come to South Korea and leave China not thinking to have any consequences by coming here to study. She felt like she had better chances to find a good university in Korea rather than China. But now she's thinking of applying for Peking University since she missed China so bad.

She went to her room and sat down on her bed. She started to cry really bad. She was done with the fact that she was a toy and always being made fun off.

She was confident but slowly she started to feel lonely which she didn't want.

"I hate my life so much."

But little didn't she know that Wen Junhui knew how lonely she was.

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i didnt know
how this got so long
but this is how i feel
i think thats why
also sorry for making
exo the bad ones
i couldnt think of any
korean girl names