Call Me Kay [on hold]

Chapter three- Dreaming

I have a whole year of school to look forward to and something tells me that this year will be the best. I still haven't talked to Jake about that dream and I don't ever plan on doing so. It was nothing.

Yes every time I see Jake, Ben or, Him, I think of it and I can't help wanting him. But no! I need to forget about him and focus on Ben and classes. It's getting harder though as Ben moved out, he had to go back to living with his parents.

We now have Paul living with us and trust me when I say he is like a ghost in that flat of ours. He is also a few years older than us, like Jake but you never see him, or hear him for that matter. It's like he's not actually there at all. I can't help but think how much it's like that show on channel 4, fresh meat.

It's Monday and I have some exhausting classes today but thankfully I have two free periods 4th and 5th. It's also a seven period day which I never normally mind but it's Monday. I don't mind having seven on Tuesday's, plus my classes then are actually the best throughout the whole day. I have to say it is my best day of the week, just wish it was tuesday today.

It's only first period, which is Maths. My teacher is a cool guy and I have an alright seat so I'm fine with this. I also sit beside my best friend so that should be a plus but to be honest I'm not sure.

Some people may call me a geek because I love the subjects that others would think I was mad for liking and sometimes I play along and say I don't, regretting it soon after. I do like Maths and I do like English, I love art an history and physics aren't far behind. I also write or read in my spare time and I spend most if my time inside and on the Internet.

Don't forget I'm ugly and I'm the biggest target for bullies. It also doesn't help that I am with Ben too because he's similar to me. He isn't the best looking and he isn't well liked by a lot of people. Don't get me wrong, people find it easy to become friends with me because I am really nice to people and I do slightly adapt to fit in but Ben isn't like that. And neither of us are really fused about those people's opinions. We only care about what our friends think.

He is in my Maths class too, but he's in a higher English. He has always been smarter than me but I blame my late start in primary- I swear I hardly learnt anything in my first 4 years.

But everybody else seemed to get it straight away. That's all changed now though. I improved and I force myself to be better. I actually force myself to be the best I can because otherwise I'd be at the bottom and I wouldn't get anywhere.

Oh brilliant there is only a few minutes left of this and then I have to go to history. Yes I live the subject but it's way too early, I hope we watch DVD cause after that I only have one more period before break, follows by two free periods.

I am startled by Mr Carragen announcing that we should pack up cause its only minutes to the bell. I quickly finish the equation I was on and I put everything away. I stand up, tuck my chair in and head to the other side of the room where I find C squared, two of my friends and it isn't long before Ben is with us.

We stand talking for a minute before the bell finally rings and I have to go to history.

And I was right, we do watch a DVD, our topic is so boring I don't even think its worth mentioning. But even with that, Miss Purdie seems to make it interesting. But now I'm in business studies, a very boring class that I was basically forced to take.

Oh shit, here come the pills again. See ya later consciousness. I hope I don't have that bloody dream again.

Thank god. This dream is just silly and doesn't make much difference to my life. Well it didn't start like that. I was just me and the boys, in our apartment, an suddenly the whole UP thing happened and we were flying away with a bunch of balloons pulling us upward. But then it changed tune. Suddenly I had my arms around Him and I was leaning up, on my tiptoes to kiss the bastard. And yes I can't even say his name because it brings a sour taste to my mouth.

It doesn't help that when I wake up, it's break and Ben is standing over me, trying to get my attention. I am also in the Cooler that they started using this year. It used to be "Mrs Wilson's" room bak when she was miss Beckett but when she moved it only sat empty for a while. Hardly getting used until they made it the Cooler. I've been in here too many times since then and it's only the second week back.

As I looked up at Ben I saw hurt and anger. Damn I was talking again wasn't I?

"hey, how you feeling?" he asked and I could practically feel the coldness in his voice.

"I'm not too bad. Is something wrong Ben? You sound angry." of course he's fucking angry, he just heard my fucking dream about that fucking cocky prick. Fuck this, I'm gonna have to play innocent.

"I'm fine, not good enough but fine." he says and the anger is still there.

"babe tell me what's wrong, please?" I beg but I know, I fucking knowing than he does about whats wrong. He doesn't know half of it.

"it's nothing forget about it." he tries to dismiss it and I let it pass for now, knowing he'll probably explode with it all later. "I have a free period next, we can talk about it then." damn I forgot about his free period, I'm also surprised he remembered I also have one.

"okay" I reply rather low before properly sitting up on the sofa I was laying on. The collet was more bare than this before I started using it when I'd pass out. Nobody else can use it though, just me or anybody else who ends up like me. So basically just moi.

I sort myself and grab my bag, taking some food from a pocket at the back. I am starving. I stand up, fixing myself before sitting back down and relaxing. I was uncomfortable with my clothes half falling off and not being relaxed like this. I dig into my snack and appreciate the fact that I had packed it this morning. Thanks to a note I left myself the night before, reminding me.

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~dedication to Abby @zombiequeen1411 because her writing is amazing and she is updating again plus she's my best friend!~

So Ben knows about the new dream, but will he ever find out about the other one(s)?

I need to find more dedications... Y'know what, if you are enjoying it then let me know in the comments, vote and get in touch on twitter~ @skittlehunger_

You may get the chance to have a dedication and trust me when I say it does t happen very often!

I love you all muchly and I'll see you at the next update which will be before the 20th!

K!xxx