Ema's...FRIEND?! (BROTHERS CONFLICT FANFICTION)

Chapter 9 - Azusa...-kun

"Saki-chan. You need to eat something."said Masaomi as he worriedly held a spoonful of soup near my lips.

"I'm not hungry."I state turning my head away.

Azusa was standing at the doorway staring at me.

"You haven't eaten anything since Hal came to visit."Azusa sighs."Masaomi..."

Masaomi nods and walks toward the door.

"Just call me if you need anything Saki-chan."

I nod and curl back into my fetus position, my head facing the wall.

"Saki...You can't just sit here and grieve. It's not healthy."

"I don't have anything left to live for..."

I felt tears well up in my eyes but I quickly suck my feeling in. They will never see me cry. So what's the point of hiding all my feelings. But, I just can't open up to all of them. But...I trust all of them. Why do I feel so conflicted? I turn around to face Azusa as he sits on the chair next to my desk.

"What about Ema? You love her don't you?"

The agitation in his voice made me flinch. This was the first time I've actually talked to him about Ema...alone. It's as if whenever Ema's name is mentioned in this family everyone just comes running.

"Of course I do...My pride just won't let me."

I look to the ground, letting my blue hair cover my face. He leans in closer to my face and I notice, he's kneeling next to my bed.

"Saki-chan, we care about you. Is this what your brother would've wanted? You to sit here and feel sorry for yourself?"

At that moment rage filled my body and I just couldn't hold it all in anymore.

"What do you know about my Onii-chan?! You've never even met him! I've been with him for almost my whole life and now...now he's gone! You aren't even my family! I'm not part of your family! So why would you care about what happens to a worthless bitch like me?!"

I start choking and hiccuping back my tears.

"I haven't cried in years...and now, now that he's dead...Everything is just falling apart. I just don't know how to cope with all this sadness..."

I tilt my head down and look at my pale hands. I couldn't look at Azusa. I just couldn't look at his hard stare without breaking down. He's right, but I just don't want to admit it.

"I would be lying if I told you I know how you feel..."

My gaze shifted slightly in surprise. I looked up at Azusa and our eyes meet. He smiles a sad smile and places a hand on my own.

"It's just painful to see you suffer like this. You didn't do anything wrong. Just remember, none of this is your fault."

"Thank you Azusa-kun."

I suddenly sit up and wrap my arms around his neck. Azusa stiffens but then slowly combs his fingers though my blue hair. The tears that threatened to fall just stopped in an instant. There was something about Azusa that just comforted me. I don't know what, but it felt nice, telling someone how I feel for once.

"Just come talk to me anytime Saki-chan."

I let go, his warmth faded away and I rubbed my eyes sleepily.

"I'll come down for lunch today...how does that sound?"I smile.

"It sounds great."he sighs in relief."I'm glad you're feeling better."

I nod and Azusa leaves to go to work with Tsubaki. I sit up but slam back down remembering my damaged leg.

'I better take it slow.'