A Hollow Empty Canvas

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Lights coming from the window struck the clean and white canvas. It was the same house, which is felt as home because of it's loving and light aura. The walls were painted with pastel with different pictures hanging on the walls. At the corner of that room, directly opposite from the open window was a young maiden.

She was occupied with her thoughts of her painting's subject and she felt an urge to finish it right away. She's to excited to what it'll look like after she finished it.

She was too focused that she hasn't notice her husband behind her and only found out when his hands blocked her view. She smiled as her husband put his hands on her eyes, another trick she's used to.

"Guess who's this."

She softly chuckle,"My crazy, loving husband."

Soon enough, his hands was removed and her sight adjusted with the light as she felt something soft landed on her cheeks. The beaming face of her husband welcomed her as his thumb remove some stains of paint to her delicate face.

"So, what are you up to today?" Her husband interrogated as he pony tailed her  brown locks into a bun. His fingers combing her hair felt relaxing as she continued painting.

"Our baby."

"A girl? But I want a boy."

"Hey, whatever gender it is, we should love it,"she said.

"Of course love."

She was just putting the finishing touches and the smiles in both of the parents-to-be are immeasurable. They both hoped that their child will be as lovely as the one in the painting but according to her, they would love it no matter what.

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"Omygod! No!"

She shouted in the bathroom as she stare at her shaking bare hands, with dripping blood on it. Tears invaded in her eyes and some of them fell as she remembered her baby and she began crying loudly while shouting her husband's name.

He rushed to the bathroom where he heard his wife shouting and he roughly opened the door and his eyes denied to take in what he saw.

"No..."

His wife, lying on the shower room in between a pool of blood in her white night ware and there's a word to describe her. Lifeless.

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Her eyes flattered open and she roamed seeing an all white background. She held her hand to her head and all she remembered was red, all red. She looked at her pale hands, with a needle on it connecting to the dextrose. Memories came rushing to her and her heart ached just as her husband came in.

"Love..."

His hair was disheveled, black forming in his eyes indicating his sleepless. She looked into his eyes and it held a lot of emotions but there were two standing out; stress and grief.

"Did she- Is still here?" She choked with her own words, fighting the tears.

She asked though she know it'll hurt eventually but she knew her answer to herself. She can't feel anything now, she can fell her inside. She wanted the truth to be slapped to her face.

Her husband looked down as he walked at the side of the bed and held her hands tight and mumbled,"I'm sorry."

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She opened her closet and the black and white garments welcomed her. She didn't know why she love those colors and now she knew. She's going to attend a lot of funeral, a funeral of her children.

She felt heavy as arms embraced her from behind. His hot breath fanning to her ear,"I love you."

"I know,"she answered coldly and he understood it. He pulled away and gave her space because she wasn't ready. He wasn't ready too.

No one's going to be ready on losing another kid. It's been 4 years and in those four years they lose 3 joys. No one's going to be used to it because every time it'll happen, it gives a new impact of pain. They've invested to much emotion to each and they didn't regret it but it's automatic to felt pain.

But if he felt pain, he has no idea how his wife felt, she's been planning a lot for it. She always think of positive things but it'll turn another way. She waited for this time to come and she told him that having a child was more of a dream come true than being a beauty queen.

She bent her knees as she stared at the tombs of her children that didn't even saw the wonder of the world. She touched it and her heart pounded in her chest as she imagined what her life would be if they're around. She felt hands in her shoulders and she began sobbing.

She felt lost. So lost and empty.

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She held her breath as she opened her eyes and dropped her gaze to the test she's holding and warm feeling touched her heart as she saw two lines. And two lines meant positive. She felt joy and she can never describe it every time she found out she's going to be a mom again.

She immediately went out to the bathroom and widely smiled to her innocent faced husband. She hand the kit to him and his face brightened and he hugged her tight.

"Thank you! Thank you love!"

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She's already 7 months today and she's preparing lunch for her husband. She's too happy today and it's her first time to reach this stage so she's planning on surprising him.

"Good morning Ma'am."

"Good morning to you too!"

She greeted his secretary and without a permission or even a knock, she opened it and her jaw dropped and also her prepared lunch for him. It caused her husband and a lady so near to him to turn to her but it was too late because her tear fell and she turned away and ran.

"Love! Love!" Ignore.

"Love,"he grabbed her wrist and she snatched it away as she aim her finger.

"What? Are you going to tell me it's nothing? Are you going to say she's no one? Don't bother because I wouldn't listen to anything you would say. Save it. I didn't know we're drifting. I didn't know we're falling apart! Why this time? Why when we're going to be a family? Why tell me!"

She felt vulnerable and he felt broken. He didn't do anything to comfort her but she's wrong. He loves her too much to cheat. He loves her too much to even think of thinking he wants another woman.

But she wasn't ready to hear it so she ran away and crossed the road but due to her blurry sight and rundown self

She didn't notice a bus

He didn't have time to run to her

The time passed by too fast

And it was too late.

WP_LIGHTS :)