There's Nothing Left For Me

Eight

Draya POV

Things haven't been the same since Orlando surprised me with the car. He of course forced me to accept it, but we really haven't been talking a lot and in these past 2 weeks. Monia is liking that very much. However, when she's not here, there is this weird, awkward, and believe it or not sexual tension between us.

Andrew went in for his second round of shots yesterday and Orlando was there to help me. I cried more than Drew did because I didn't want to see him in that pain, not that any mother would.

Tashard's been laying low still. I don't know what's going on with him and I'm starting not to care to be honest.

"Hey baby." O looked at me with a smirk and I rolled my eyes. "I was talking about my son." I grabbed Drew from him and went into the kitchen.

"Mommy missed you today." I smiled as he tried to put his hand in my mouth. "Dang." I sucked my teeth when I realized he was out of breastmilk, meaning I had to breast feed and pump later.

"Great. Mommy go out to try and find a job and comes home having to do stuff." I got him to latch on my left nipple as I looked at what to cook tonight.

"Orlando what do you want to eat?" I turned around to see him playing on his xbox 360. I didn't care about him seeing me breast feed because he's seen me naked a bunch of times. He claimed those were accidents but we both know the only time he accidentally walked in on me was the day of my baby shower.

"Um. It don't matter. I might not be here to eat it." I nodded. "Okay then." I turned back to the fridge and opened the freezer, rummaging through both of them.

"Wassup man?" I heard as O went to get the door. Whoever it was, was just going to have to see me breastfeed cause I ain't feel like going upstairs to get my breastfeeding blanket.

"Why you got your titties all out?" I rolled my eyes.

"Hello to you too Tashard." I moved away when he tried to kiss me.

"First you showing yaself, na I can't get a kiss."

"You acting as if I'm walking around here naked. You need to calm ya ass down forreal Tashard. I'm not in the mood." He chuckled.

"Yeah alright." He tried to kiss me again and once AGAIN I moved. "The fuck's wrong with you?" I looked at him like the fool he was acting that.

"I've barely talked to you an about a month. That's what's the fuck's wrong with me." I turned around from him to unlatch Drew and fix myself. Although we are a couple, Tashard has never seen me naked. The closest he's ever been was when Orlando had a small pool party on a random day.

"I can't believe you right now Draya." He shook his head.

"Me? What have I done to you? Huh? Cause it seems like every since I told you I didn't want to move in with you, you started bitching." I placed Drew over my shoulder to burp him.

"I'm bitching about a bit-" O cut him off.

"You better chose you words carefully bruh." He warned them as I stood there hurt.

"You taking up for her. Over me?" Shard turned around at Orlando.

"I'm not taking sides. I'm just saying. Watch ya mouth before saying shit." O shrugged.

"Orlando, It's fine. He got his bitch.. I'm done with you." I looked at Tashard.

"Ha! That's fine. That's why I've been fucking someone who cares about my needs." The solid truth angered me so much that I drew my hand back and punched him in his face.

"Whoa. Dray." Orlando stepped in between us. Which he really didn't have to since Tashard had left.

"Orlando I knew it. I knew it." I broke down in his chest.

"D it's gonna be alright. Ima handle him." He rubbed my back.

"Im so stupid." I pushed him back to calm Andrew down. "Come on, it's time for your nap anyways." I rocked him as I walked up to his room.

"Draya." I sighed, stopping my body from going in my room.

"Yes Orlando?" I turned around to face him, placing my back on my door and folding my arms.

"Go change in something comfortable."

"Why?"

"Cause I'm finna take you somewhere. Hurry ya ass up." I rolled my eyes and went into my room. Since he said something comfortable, I decided to wear blue jean shorts, a white tee, and my Jordan lll True Blues.

"You ready?" He asked when I came downstairs. He already had himself dressed and had Andrew's bag packed and him ready to go.

"Yeah." He got up from the couch and grabbed the car seat and I picked Drew's baby backpack up.

"You straight?" I looked to see him looking at me concerned. We've been driving for about 45 minutes and I really haven't spoken. I've been too deep in my thoughts.

"Yeah I'm straight." I shrugged. "I'm used to it." I told him. I've been in at least 4 relationships where he cheated on me. After the last one, I just gave up on guys as a whole. I was too young to be experiencing all the cheating. I told myself to stop falling into the traps and I did. I kinda turned cold on the opposite sex. Before that night in the hotel, I was celibate for almost two years.

"Used to what? Getting cheated on?" His eyebrows pushed together.

"Yeah." He lightly laughed, shaking his head.

"I don't know what's wrong with my gender. Niggas complain about not finding a good woman that's down and shit, yet they cheat when they find one." I looked at him with my eyebrows raised.

"What?" He laughed.

"You talking like you ain't try to have me dry hump you a few weeks ago." He grinned.

"I said when they find one." I shook my head.

"You shot out." We laughed.

"Why be in a relationship if you know she's not the one?" I asked.

"Simple. To get my dick wet without any drama." I mugged him. "What? I'm being honest. I rather be in a relationship and be getting fucked than fucking randoms when I want some pussy. It seems legit to me."

"I understand where you coming from. But it's just the girls you choose are crazy." He laughed.

"You right. But they ain't as crazy as you. You messed my nigga mouth up and you had a baby in ya arm." I smirked.

"He deserved it. He felt so proud that he cheated. That's nothing to be awarded for." I shrugged. It's stupid really if you ask me.

"You right he did. Ima fuck his ass up too cause I already warned him about fucking witchu." I smiled.

"Awwe daddy had to make sure his baby girl was okay." I leaned over to pinch his cheeks.

"You can call me daddy alright." I softly slapped his cheek and sat back in my sit.

"You're ridiculous." He laughed at me. "Where the hell are we going? We've been riding for an hour." I complained.

"Calm ya ass down." He said turning into the Cowboys' Stadium.

"All you had to say was that we were coming here." I rolled my eyes.

"I just gotta grab something then we can go." He said parking.

"I'm staying in the car." I said once I noticed the long walk.

"Naw you getting yo lazy ass out. Come on." I sucked my teeth before getting out.