Why Did You Save Me? (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 36

It's been about a month since I've been at Louis'.

I've cried, harmed, and starved myself behind Lou's back.

How didn't he notice? I don't know...

But I've been doing it because today is the day.

Today is the day that my mum died.

It's been 9 years since she died.

"I'm going out, Lou!"

"Alright! be back soon!"

"Ok."

And I was out.

I was heading to the cemetery where my mum was buried. I went to buy some flowers and then I went straight to the cemetery.

I walked in. It's quiet. Usually I'm the only one here so I'm used to it.

I walk over to her grave and kneel down.

"Hey, mum. It's been a while. Dad's gone, Harry's gone. What do I do?"

The tears were pouring down my face.

"I miss you so much. Ever since you died, I knew it as for a reason. God needed his angel back. But, I just wish I could see you one last time. I wish I can hear your voice one last time. I wish you were still here. And the only reason I'm here is because I know you wouldn't want me to give up. I'm trying so hard, mum. I just don't know if I'm strong enough anymore."

I was crying my eyes out.

I hear crying, but it's not my crying.

That's unusual...

I look all around me and see someone sitting by a grave with the name...

Kaitlyn Styles.

It was Harry.

He looks up and sees me.

He is face was stained with tears and his eyes were all red and puffy.

I have never seen him like that.

He looked back at his sister's grave an kept crying.

I heard him say something,

"I still love her, Katie. I love her so much."

He was talking about me.

I couldn't just sit here.

I got up and walked towards Harry, taking a deep breath.

I sat next to him and wrapped my arms around him.

He cried into my chest saying,

"I miss her so much. I love her."

"Shh, Harry, I know."

"I just can't believe she's gone."

I feel like crap now, treating Harry like shit.

I'm so bipolar...

"I know."

"Its my fault."

"What? Harry, it's not your fault."

"Yes it is! If I went to her room earlier, this wouldn't have happened! I killed my own sister!"

"No you didn't! If anything, she saved herself. Just think. If she was still alive, she would be suffering with all of this pain. Now she is somewhere where there is no such thing as pain. She's just like my mother. God took he for a reason, Harry. God needed his angles back."

After I said this, we just looked at eachother. He was intently looking me in the eyes. I looked down and saw something I have never seen before.

"W-what are these?" I asked pointing to Harry's arm.

"Oh...umm..."

"I did this, didn't I?" I asked.

"What? No."

"Yes I did. You've never done this before. I know you, Harry."

A tear streamed down my face was I said this.

"There's something you haven't done either." Harry said.

"What?" I asked confused.

"You never... told me you had cancer."

He found out... How?

"I saw the envelope you threw away."

"I'm sorry... I didn't know how you'd react."

"I can't lose someone else that I love. I can't, Skye."

"You still love me?"

"Yes! Of course I still love you. I didn't mean anything I said. I was just angry because you didn't tell me these things. If anyone should be sorry it should be me for acting like an arse."

"No, it should be me for lying to you about my life."

There was about a minute pause.

"Well, um.. we should get going." he finally said.

"Yeh."

"Bye." He said walking away.

"Wait." I said.

"Hm."

"What does this make us?" I asked.

"Whatever you want us to be."

He started to walk away again.

"I will never leave you." I whispered.

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I feel like shit ok.

Ugh

#prayforlouis

#welovelouis

#prayforandy

#legends

Love ya

Maddie<3