Psychological Scars (Dean Ambrose Fanfic) Sequel to Ten Tonne Skeleton.

You soothe my pain - Part 6

The warehouse was full of people backstage, getting ready for the night. They had one more show in Iowa and then they would be on their way back home for Monday. Jon traveled the never ending halls, trying to find Sami. He wanted to give his fiance a big hug and kiss. Being with Seth, Roman and AJ made him realize how much he really loved Sami.

Sami was in the locker room getting changed into his ring gear. He wondered where Jon was. He hadn't seen him all morning. He was slightly worried about his fiance. What if something bad had happened to him? His worry disappeared however, when Jon made his way into the locker room and ran up to hug Sami.

"I missed you." Jon whispered, his head pressed against Sami's chest in a warm embrace.

"I missed you too, baby." Sami cooed, holding onto Jon tightly. "Don't worry. I'm here now."

"I love you." 

"I love you too." Both men shared a kiss.

Jon got changed into his ring gear and spent the rest of the afternoon by Sami's side. 

Seth was at the show again. He wanted to talk to Jon, but he didn't get the chance. Jon ignored him the whole time. He refused to make eye contact. 

Seth made his way backstage after the show. He didn't know where he got the confidence from, but some how he managed to go into the men's locker room without chickening out. Jon was the first to see him. Sami turned to look at the door, when Jon hid behind his larger frame. He was furious with what he saw.

"What the hell do you think you're doing? Get out!" Sami shouted. 

"Look, I just wanna talk to Jon for a minute." Seth sighed. Sami could hear Jon whispering 'No.' behind his back.

"He doesn't want to talk to you. Leave."

"How do you know he doesn't wanna talk to me? Let him answer for himself." Seth was starting to get angry. Sami turned his head to see a scared look on Jon's face.

"Jon, do you wanna talk to him?" Sami asked. Jon shook his head, hiding himself even more behind his fiance. "Well, there's your answer. Do I need to call security or are you gonna show yourself out?"

"I'll show myself out, thanks. Oh, and Jon?" Jon looked up slightly to see Seth's face. "I finally paid off all of your hospital bills from April. You're welcome." Seth sighed, walking out of the room.

"Hospital bills?" Sami asked once Seth had left. He looked confused.

"It's a long story. I'll tell you later." Jon sighed. "Can we go now? I just wanna go to bed."

"Of course sweetie. Our flight is in an hour, so we should head for the airport." Sami replied.

Jon looked like he was about to pass out from exhaustion, so Sami picked him up bridal style and carried him out to the car. He fell asleep within seconds.

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The flight home was peaceful. Both men slept the entire journey. They made it back home early Monday morning and got straight into bed to sleep once again.

Sami awoke first and watched Jon as he rested. The gentle rise and fall of his chest calmed Sami in a way that nothing else ever had. He was so lucky to have Jon as his fiance. Everything was perfect apart from Seth, suddenly coming into their lives and trying to take Jon away. There was no way in hell that Sami would allow that to happen. Jon was his.

Jon awoke soon after Sami. The two men spent some time hugging one another in bed, before going downstairs to have some breakfast.

"Hey Jon?" Sami wanted to ask his fiance about something.

"Yeah?" 

"What did Seth mean when he said he paid for your hospital bills?" Sami was worried about what Seth had said. What if something was wrong with Jon?

"Uh, in April I-I overdosed on sleeping pills. I wasn't happy so I-" Jon started to cry.

"Hey, baby it's okay. Don't cry." Sami soothed his lover with a hug.

"I-I'm sorry."

"You've got nothing to be sorry for." Sami hated seeing Jon so upset. "Why did you do it?"

"I don't really know. It's a mix-ture o-of things."

"Well, I've got all day. There's no rush. If you want to tell me you can."

"Um, I di-didn't like working for the WWE and I was stressed out. I was feeling really guilty about something I had done that had upset Seth, and I lost my match. I just lost it. I couldn't imagine myself being alive. I wanted to die. I was just fed up with everything." Jon sobbed.

"Hey, shh. Let it all out. It's okay." Sami held Jon on his lap and kept him tight in a warm embrace. "I love you so much, baby."

"I-I lo-ve you too."

"Calm down, you'll make yourself ill with all that crying." Sami stroked his fiance's hair as he cried into his chest. He stood up and carried Jon over to the sofa, so they could lay down. 

After a while Jon's crying started to calm. Sami wiped away his lover's tears and whispered soothing things into his ear.

"Do you wanna watch a movie, babe?" Sami asked. Jon nodded. "What do you wanna watch?"

"I don't mind. You pick." Jon sniffed.

"Okay, how about Gladiator?" Sami knew that it was one of Jon's favorite films. Jon smiled and nodded his head in response. 

The rest of the day was spent with the two men snuggled up on the sofa, watching films and eating junk food.

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Seth was confused as to why Jon hid from him. It wasn't as if he was going to hurt him. He just wanted to talk. Sami must have messed him up real bad. He'd never seen Jon act this way before and they had known each other for a very long time.

Why did all of this have to happen? Why couldn't Jon have stayed with the WWE or with Seth? Why couldn't he have kept his birth name? Jon was a terrible name in Seth's eyes. He definitely preferred Dean. He wanted his old friend back. He wanted his boyfriend back. He wanted to be Jon's fiance. Why did he have to screw it all up at that stupid family Easter party?

Breaking Jon's heart was the one thing Seth regretted most about his life. It tore him apart day and night. The constant guilt eating him up from the inside. People noticed. Roman and AJ could see a change in Seth. A change that wasn't safe. He needed help, before anything bad happened.