I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He was the love of my life. Why did he have to go?
Why did he marry her? Why not me? Well I knew the answer to that.. Because of the distance between us, his fame that was starting to develop and his busy schedule right away.
Even after two years I still wanted him, my heart was still broken and nobody had mended it.
I thought I was fine before but when I heard the news and met him later, my heart was shattered. My love for him wasn’t over.
I thought back then this decision can’t backfire me. I will get over him, I said.
A week earlier...
I was so nervous about today. He wanted to talk to me. Why now? Why not 2 years ago? I knocked on his door. My heart pounded so hard. What if he wanted to get back together? I moved to London, so we could work on it again. Maybe he broke it off with Perrie. Maybe I stood a chance.
Zayn opened the door. ‘’Hi Anne..’’
‘’Hi..’’ I tried to be cool, but underneath I was a bit excited to see and hug him again.
But he didn’t let me hug him and invited me in.
‘’Do you want something to drink?’’ he asked.
‘’Well a diet Coke would be nice.’’ I answered. I took my jacket off and walked into the apartment. It was quite nice and big. He walked towards the kitchen and I sat down on the couch.
‘’You can turn the TV on if you want.’’ He announced.
‘’Okay, thank you.’’ I grabbed the remote and turned on Disney Channel. Phineas & Ferb was on. And Phineas just asked the famous quote ‘’Hey where’s Perrie?’’.
But where was Perrie? I thought she lived here. Oh my god, where my desires true? Did he broke it off with Perrie? Ehm, maybe he just wanted to clear the air about what happened two years ago... We broke up and had a huge fight. After a few weeks we said sorry and we promised each other to stay friends. Well, when I heard that he had another girlfriend in a few weeks I was devastated. So I didn’t talk to him anymore, I didn’t answered his texts or calls. Until a few weeks ago. He heard that I was in town and called my parents to ask where I lived and visited me. I missed him so much but I was too scared to call him, so I wasn’t angry for visiting me.
‘’Here’s your Diet Coke’’ He said while he was observing me. I felt a bit exposed but flattered too.
I thanked him and he sat down next to me and he was facing towards me.
I looked at him. ‘’Why did you invite me?’’ I asked.
‘’Well.. I wanted to clear the air. Because you mean much to me..’’ Zayn sighed. I looked into his brown eyes and I was almost sure that I saw his eyes lit up again when they met mine.
‘’.. I know I missed you so much you know, but I was a bit scared to call you’’ I admitted. Zayn chortled and drank some Cola.
‘’Well.. We can try it again if you want?’’ Zayn suggested. My heart pounded so hard I was sure Zayn could hear it loud and clear. I could feel that a grin was on my face but I tried to stay cool.
‘’Huh? What do you mean?’’
‘’Well, we can try to be friends again.. Only if you want ofcourse.’’
And that word.. Friends.. I wanted to be so much more but in his eyes I was just a friend, nothing more. I bit on my lip and nodded. Because I knew if I said one more word I would whine.
‘’Well.. You know I’m with Perrie now.. And I don’t know if this is the right time to ask.. But..’’ Zayn sighed. Maybe he will say that we can try to work it out and ask to try it again! ‘’.. Perrie and I are going to marry.. Do you want to be at my wedding?’’ Zayn looked into my eyes with pity. ‘’.. If you want..’’
And I thought that only be friends was the worst thing I could hear at that moment. I searched through my purse and found the envelop. I opened it and it was typed with big black letters:
CELEBRATE OUR WEDDING
PERRIE EDWARDS & ZAYN MALIK
I threw the card in my bin and lay down on my bed.
‘’Hey...’’ I felt an hand rubbing my back. ‘’Everything’s going to be alright.’’
I recognized the voice of my roommate. ‘’Thank you, Vera.’’
‘’Do you want a cup of tea?’’ She asked.
‘’Yes, that’d be lovely.’’
She walked out of my door. I decided to turn on my TV and enjoy MTV’s Made.
‘’Anne! Your tea is ready!’’ Vera screamed.
‘’Coming!’’ I yelled back. I jumped off the bed and walked towards the living room. I stood still. Where the hell was my roommate?
‘’What the...’’
‘’Hi..’’ Zayn sighed.
‘’H-hello.’’ I shuddered. I couldn’t believe he was here! I was not in the mood to talk to him, I was devastated of his wedding.
‘’How did you come in?’’ I asked.
‘’Well.. Your roommate let me in.’’
‘’O..’’ I rolled with my eyes, just to let him show that I was irritated.
‘’Hey.. I don’t want you to be mad, okay?’’
‘’I’m not mad, but I was a bit shocked’’ I lied. Zayn walked towards me and grabbed my shoulder with both of his hands and looked at me.
‘’Anne..’’ He stopped for a second. ‘’Anne.. There’s no wedding anymore.’’
I looked at him. He was smiling but I saw he was devastated what happened to him and Perrie. This time I was shocked. When he saw I was no longer able to speak, he continued.
‘’I couldn’t stop thinking about you and when I visited you, it only got worse. I can’t eat.. I can’t sleep and I can’t thinks straight. You’re doing something to me no one’s ever done to me before.’’ He blurted out.
‘’What about Perrie?’’ I asked. I realised that she would be devastated too. The love of her life has left her for me and then immediately ran off to me.
‘’Well.. We don’t have to rush anything. Just promise me we’ll try to pick up the pieces.’’ He looked at me with his puppy brown eyes and he beamed with delight.
I grinned and couldn’t get the smirk off my face. ‘’Yes, we can try.’’
He laughed and his eyes lit up immediately. He pressed his lips against mine and didn’t let go for minutes. I heard some laughing and cheering from my roommate in the background. But I couldn’t care less, I had the love of my life back and I will never let him slip out of my hands again.
