Love From The Shadows (Book 2)

Algedonic

Location: Unknown
Time: 1:30 am

I was outside looking at the gentle waves as the soft cold breeze hit my skin and face making me a bit tired and I decided to go and sleep as I got downstairs I see Jehanne drinking alone and I decided to join him, I entered the room and said:

-Hey Jehanne are you okay? What are you doing in this boat?

He looked at me and rapidly I noticed he was drunk and he started speaking and crying

-I'M NOT OKAY AND THIS IS THE ONLY BOAT WITH ALCOHOL-

He starts crying and I knew he was having a hard time with Roi's sad departure and I quickly sat down next to him serving myself some wine and said:

-Let's go outside-

I get him up and we started going upstairs and I see Chrix steering the Rudder and said to me:

-It's Jehanne okay?-

I looked at him and whispered on his ear

-I don't know really...that's what I am going to try to figure out- he replies

-Okay, best of luck with that-

I started walking to the ledge of the boat with Jehanne and started looking at the reflection of the moon in the sea and said:

-It's beautiful isn't?-

He looks at it then me saying

-How do you do it?-

I confused looked at him and said

-What do you mean?-

He looks at the sky and say

-How could you go on with the loss of Derick?-

When he mentioned that name I got shivers and a knot in the throat that barely could let me talk but I clear my throat and said:

-It's not something you just forget...I've been haunted by my thoughts ever since he died...torturing me when I am awake with my thoughts and at night in my dreams. Let me tell you something, when he passed out right in my face that day I was happy for him, because it was his time and I am glad his resting in peace now because he never was a bad guy, He always wanted the best for me and everyone around him and living in this nightmare it's really Hard but now that his gone I'm keeping his promise alive I won't failed him or Serity. You should think that way about Roi because believe it or not he reminded me a lot about Derick and I am pretty sure wherever he is right now his better than us. Now know this...he didn't die, his physical presence may be absence away but someone doesn't really die until you forget them and the beautiful memories you have with that person, until that brain of yours fades away all the memories you had with him and that's when you truly know that wherever he is now...he will never forget you buddy (I say handing him the bracelet Tanaka gave me)-

He starts to cry as he gently caresses the bracelet and he says:

-Thank you Reckzy, I never thought I would be in the same situation as you but I guess it was his time huh?-

I looked at him and say

-I'm afraid so but hey (I grabbed his shoulder) don't let his death be in vain-

I stars crying and says:

-Thanks-

I replied:

-Get yourself together-

He stops crying in shocked and say

-I can't.....-

I looked at him and said

-I know you miss him, I know you're hurt but you have to keep moving forward for Serity and him so get yourself together drink fucking all the whiskey you want cry all you want but you will not fall do you hear me? You will keep pushing forward and we together will make Serity well again think it about it this way when we all did we will be reunited, I don't want you to look for your death because Roi wouldn't want that he would want you to fight until your last breath-

He in shocked grabs the bottle of whiskey and serves himself a full glass of it and goes to his room saying

-I won't fail him then, but it hurts so much going on without him-

I looked at him and said

-I didn't said it was easy-

He gets back to his boat really pierced and I continue to watch the waves again and started thinking

-I can't wait to be with you again Derick-

and after a few minutes looking at the sea I planted the anchor and made my way to the room to sleep and Tanaka was there, I slowly got on the bed and hugged her falling asleep...