Me, My Thugs and I

Chapter 19

***DESHAWN P.O.V***

I feel bad about not going with them. I know I should have but if she wasent there or even worse if she was dead I dont know what I would do. After Chris left I went home. I was laying on the sofa thinking about Lex and how much I missed her.

Then the door opened. I looked up to see who it was and it was Lex and JJ but no Chris. Her white shorts had turned red and she was covered in blood. Her eyes looked blood shot and she was shivering.  "What happened" I asked pulling her into a hug.

"He's gone!" She cried in my shoulder.  JJ cried aswell sitting on the sofa.

"What Chris" I questioned

"Yes Chris, she shot him right infront of us!" She weepeped on my shoulders.  I knew she didn't want to talk about it so I stopped asking questions and hugged her tighter. After a few moments she pulled away from me wipping her tears. "Why Shawn, why"

"Why what" I was hella confused

"Why didn't you come, im sure Chris and JJ told you  come to think if it Aaron didn't come either" She began raising her voice.

"Aaron's taking care of Destiny and" shr cut me off

"And what about you, what drinking your sorrows away trying to move away" She yelled looking around at the beer cans on the floor.

"No its not like that I searched for you everyday and everynight but I lost hope" I explained

"And to think I cried myself to sleep everynight hoping you were going to rescue me, when I was..." she began crying "When I was rapped I hoped you would come in and save me, but most of all I hoped you wouldnt give up on me that you wouldnt loose hope on me!" I tried pulling her into a hug but she pulled away.

"JJ can I stay at yours for a bit just till I get my head round things?" she asked

"What you can still stay here" I told her

"Well I dont want to not now anyway dont make it harder than it needs to be its not like im staying there temporally"

"Thats not the point"

"Then what is it"

"its that I love you and I love the baby inside you and I want to look after you"

"Abit to late for that dont you think" I didnt say anything cause she was right I should of went. "You fucked up big time"

"Yeah I know bet your lovin it she gets to stay with you"

"Come on Shawn you know we just friends"

"yeah im sorry guess im just angry but take care of her yeah"

"cool" I saw Lex come down the stairs with a over night bag, I cant believe she was acctually going through with this.

"Later Shawn"She said walking past me towards the car

"Safe Shawn" JJ said dapping me.

They walked through the door and that wad it.