Fearing the Dead

10// All on Board

It was almost as though time stood still.
Cliche I know, but it was.
Those words he spoke to me were running through my head over and over again.
And of course, I'm the idiot who just left him hanging, waiting for my response.

"Well. Today made me think. About how little time we really have. And how harsh the word really is. So I have something to tell you. It might ruin everything but I am willing to risk it.
Angel Sommers, I'm in love with you. And I have been for a long time" Chris says, shyly, awaiting my response, as he looks at the ground.
After a minute or two of silence he looks up to see me, mouth open like a bloody fish, confused and startled from the sudden confession.
"I understand if this ruined everything but-"

"No!" I say cutting him off.
Wanting,
Needing him to know I felt the same.
But I couldn't find the words.
"I- uh- I" I say but no words were forming.

And you know what I did after that.
I walked away.

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It was early in the morning. Maybe around 2 or 3, and I still lay awake thinking about what happened.

"I'm in love with you. And I have been for a long time"

I'm an idiot, so stupid.
I just walked away.
No, 'I love you too Chris' or 'I have to same feelings about you'
No. I just showed him the cold turkey and left his ass.
I'm an idiot.

My thoughts were running wild, all I done was sit in my bed, thinking.
So being the stupid girl that I am, decide that I have to do it.
I have to tell Chris how I feel.
But of course.
In the world we live in today, every second counts.
And mine that allow me to tell Chris how I feel are slowly running out.

"Dad!" I hear someone yell out from the deck immediately recognizing the voice to be Chris'. Immediately a zoo erupts in my stomach but I push those feelings away knowing that if he's calling Travis, something is happening.

I hear various voices from up on deck as slowly side out of bed and over to the piles of clothes, stacked nearby.
Looking down at Alicia's bunk I see her eyes open obviously hearing the voices too.