Alex

Chapter 3

Alex had been hurt many times before. He's been hurt since the day he was born. He's fallen many times as a child but those were all accidents. He'd been hurt physically, mentally, and emotionally. He eventually became broken because the many times he's been hurt. The worst time he's ever been broken was in 5th grade.

He had a crush on a 6th grader at the time and he was the nervous/shy type of person. He'd been trying to get close to his crush for half a year until a miracle happened.

~*~

Alex was watching two kids playing baseball and suddenly his crush was standing next to him. He suddenly tried getting his attention by saying, "You're a loser!" and suddenly he replied.

"You're a loser." the boy said.

"Why?" Alex asked.

"Because you don't have any friends." the boy replied.

"Oh." Alex replied.

"My name's Johnny." he said and reached out his hand to greet him.

"My name's Alex." Alex said as he shook Johnny's hand.

From there, they started talking for, what seemed like, forever. It was something magical for Alex because he was actually talking to his crush; and has the courage to do so. It wasn't exactly something that'd last forever because things started going downhill in the next few days.

One day, Alex saw Johnny running because they were playing some game that Alex didn't know about. He then went up to Johnny and asked, "You wanna go to my house?" Then Johnny replied with, "Dude, we just barely met." and he kept running. He then became desperate.

There was a fire drill and Alex was supposed to sit with his grade level but he sat with the 6th graders to get closer to Johnny. Johnny tried to get his attention but his friend said, "Dude, he doesn't know you." Then Alex said, "Yes, he does. We met right here by the baseball field!" And the boy just ignored him, so did Johnny.

Alex felt emotionally and mentally hurt at that time because he was brokenhearted by the one guy he liked. He felt mentally hurt because he started thinking that no one would ever love him.

~*~

When Logan told Alex that he had dated Scott before, it felt like his situation with Johnny all over again. This time, it was worse. It felt like all the pain from his past was combined together.

Logan and Alex stood in silence as Alex struggled what to say next. He was deeply hurt and couldn't believe this was happening to him.

"I.....I gotta go." was all Alex could manage to say.

"Oh.....okay..." Logan replied.

As Alex was about to leave, he couldn't help but ask, "Is it true...that you lost your virginity...to Scott?"

He tried to hold back tears as he was hoping that it wasn't true.

"Yes," Logan replied, "I lost my virginity for him."

Alex stared at Logan in disgrace and couldn't help him but slap him across the face and say, "You worthless piece of shit."

Logan watched Alex walk away in despair and he couldn't help but feel guilty for ruining everything between them.

~*~

That night, Alex had to tear apart the entire plan he had for a proposal to go to the dance with him. This was when Alex realized he would never be happy again because he lost the one he loved.

He believed there was a chance for them both but that dream had fallen apart. He never wanted to love again because he knew it'd keep hurting worse than the last time. Things were never going to be the same for Alex; this time he was so deeply broken that he completely forgot who he was