hurt

chapter two

"I just don't know why he wouldn't tell me the reason for him leaving me." I said to Katherine popping a tic-tac in my mouth.

"I don't either.." She said warily.

"Do you know something I don't?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at her.

"No."

"Please don't keep anything like this from me. This is important."

"I'm not."

"Katherine..? I know when you're lying, and you're lying."

"No I'm not, okay? You don't know everything about me. I'm not lying to you. I think you just need some time alone because honestly you're not the Simone I know. Just go get some sleep or something." She said rudely. I looked at her and shook my head.

"When I need someone most, you make things worse." I stood and left, the door slamming behind me.

•••

I sat down inside the small restaurant and looked through the menu.

"Harry, I feel sorta bad.." said a voice that sounded like Katherine's.

"I do too.." He replied. My eyes burned with tears hearing his raspy voice. I put my menu up to cover my face while I eavesdropped.

"Should I tell her?" She asked.

"Maybe.. Just give her time to get over me and then tell her. So it won't hurt her as badly."

I gasped. Are Katherine and Harry... Oh my god.

"Don't worry. It already is hurting." I said loudly getting up from my seat. They turned around and looked at me. Shocked.

"Simone.." Harry said sadly. I resisted the urge to stay and let him "explain." and walked off. As soon as I got out of the door, I ran. I ran to the park across the street.

I sat down in the grass by the small pond and watch a cute little girl throw bread at the ducks in the water.

Take me back.

Take me back to those days when the only thing that made me cry was scraping my knee on the sidewalk.

Take me back.

Take me back to when I thought boys were gross and I didn't know what a relationship was.

Take me back to when I played barbies and made the men and women have perfect lives.

I wish I never grew up to witness such hurt. Growing up used to be something I wanted so badly. It used to be something I couldn't wait to do. I couldn't wait to get out of the house and live an independent life.

Now

I can't wait to get out of life.

"Simone!" Katherine yelled running towards me. I dried my eyes and looked at her.

"Get the fuck away."

"Simone please,"

"You dated the love of my life while I was! You expect me to listen to you?! I can't trust you anymore, Katherine. You've gone to far. Just don't talk to me." I said blinking back more tears. As I ran across the street, Harry grabbed my arm.

"Let go!" I screamed.

"Simone, let me explain."

"Oh okay. Let me just let you explain how you cheated on me with my bestfriend! Go ahead, I'd like to hear this load of bullshit that's about to roll off your tongue!" I yelled. He grabbed my arm tighter and pulled me over to a bench. We sat down. He let go of me and took a deep breath.

"I always loved you, Simone. From the moment I met you, I felt something,"

"Then why'd you cheat on me if you loved me. You piece of lying shit." I rudely said.

"Let me finish. Then I met Katherine. No, I didn't like her at first because all I could think about was you. So Katherine and I started talking, and talking led to small dinner dates, then that led to dating. We didn't tell you because we didn't want to hurt you. I still loved you, Simone. I just... Katherine was always such a happy person and,"

"So you liked her better because she wasn't a depressed freak."

"No, she just helped me get happier because she knew how to be happy."

"I get it, Harry."

"Really?"

"Yeah.. I understand that she's better. She's happy and hasn't once cut. She's drop dead gorgeous too, so why wouldn't you?"

"You're gorgeous too, Simone. You're amazing.. I just sometimes need a happy influence."

"So are you gonna take it back?"

"Take what back?"

"Je T'aime. Are you gonna take back the fact that you love me? I think you should just go ahead and take back the I love you. It'll be better to hear it now than later or to go on thinking you love me."

"I do."

"Lies."

"I really do love you."

"You wouldn't have left me if you truly loved me! Stop the fucking lies!" I screamed standing up. I huffed and walked off.

•••

I laid back and thought back to the time Harry cared most.

When I almost killed myself.

//flashback\\

"Is she okay?!" Harry yelled. The doctors grabbed him and calmed him down.

I felt bad that I'm the cause for everyone's pain and stress.

Why am I such a screw up?

"Please, let me see her!" He shouted. The doctors nodded and let him come in.

He looked as if he'd been crying.

"Baby.." He whispered looking at me in the hospital bed.

"Harry, I'm fine. Don't worry."

"Simone, no person that's fine or okay would commit suicide. Please. Don't ever do that again."

"Okay, I won't."

"No. I want you to swear on my life."

"Harry I,"

"Simone."

"I swear on your life I won't."

He walked over and sat on the side of the bed.

"Je T'aime." He whispered grabbing my hand.

"Je T'aime." I whispered back smiling.

"Forever." He said leaning in.

"And ever." I replied kissing him.

//reality\\

I realized I was crying intensely.

I thought back to so many memories.

But the hospital one was always the best one.

So much for forever and ever.

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ik this chapter is short #sorrynotsorry