jesus fucking christ i hate that i'm like this i fucking hate myself, all i fucking do is overthink and overanalyze every single thing to the point where i'd rather be dead than think about it for one more second
i hate this fucking feeling because i feel like i do every goddamn thing wrong and i ruin absolutely everything and i know that it's fucking true because people have told me how fucking awful i am and i try to get it out of my head i really do but all i can fucking think about is all the negative things that have ever been said about me
i wish i was better, i wish i could be a role model, i wish i cared more about school, i wish that i knew someone in my situation, i wish i had a different dad, i wish i didn't constantly feel so fucking left out, i wish i didn't ever fucking speak so i couldn't ruin shit
i wish i wasn't so selfish i wish i was confident i wish i was in love i wish i wasnt so lonely i wish that my dad could care i wish that my dreams come true
jesus fucking christ i'm so goddamn tired of wishing and waiting but i have no fucking clue what else to do and i can't take it because every day i hate myself more and i am going to snap
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Randomthe cover cut off the "r" in "rants" so now it just says "ants" and i think that's a good metaphor for my life
