the worst part about this is that all of it is my fault
if i had never messaged them in march then none of this would have happened
i should have stayed gone, then they would all be the same and they'd be happy
i ruined everything when i came back
it's all my fault, all of it
i do nothing but hurt people
i hurt people last year in may, i hurt people in november, i hurt people in march, i hurt people in may again, i hurt people again in july
i don't deserve to have friends nobody deserves getting stuck with someone like me as a friend
i'm truly such a fucking awful person and not a day goes by that i don't hate myself for it
if i had stayed gone back in march, they'd all still be friends. other people would still be in a relationship. i came back and i ruined that. i make everything so much worse and the world would be better off without me.
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gay emo rants
Randomthe cover cut off the "r" in "rants" so now it just says "ants" and i think that's a good metaphor for my life
