gay emo rants

love yourself

get ready for a body positivity rant ;; i took a picture kinda similar to this earlier and i wanted to post it but i kept thinking about what people would say/think about it and if they'd react badly to my body and i was driving myself crazy thinking about it. i wasn't really sad, just scared of getting backlash from anyone that follows me, even though i know that the people that follow me are my mutuals and we have the same opinion on most things. i was still scared though. i feel like my friends see me as someone who's always confident but in reality i'm constantly second guessing the way i look and worrying over my insecurities. i stare at my stomach in disgust, my stretch marks make me cry, and my scars make me want to stop breathing. i freak out the second i get a blemish and i'm constantly making sure that my eyebrows aren't messy. i think my boobs aren't big enough, i think my top lip is too thin for my bottom lip, and i have this really strange freckle/mole thing on the side of my face. i'm constantly questioning my appearance and wanting to improve it in any way possible. but then the next day i'll wake up and i'll look in the mirror and i won't even notice the new break out on my cheek or the way my chin juts out. i'll look in the mirror and absolutely fucking love my thighs. i'll love my arms and i'll love the way that my hair never knows what the hell it's doing. and those are the days that i try to focus on. i don't worry about my stretch marks because i know that nobody else is worrying about mine. they're too bust worrying about theirs. i think that when people say that you have a choice to be happy that they've never know what it's like to be sad, so i am definitely not saying that you have the choice whether or not to love your body. but i do think you have the choice to try. i think that everyone should look in the mirror and give themselves a compliment. look yourself in the eyes and say that you think you are gorgeous. because what you think is all that really matters. it doesn't matter what that boy who sits in front of you in english thinks. it doesn't matter what the girl in your gym class thinks. it doesn't matter what your parents think and it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks because all that matters is that you love yourself. i'm still on my own journey there but i know that in the real world, nobody cares. all i really want is for people to be happy with themselves. to love the way they look. so please try. your stomach is beautiful, no matter how big or small. your hair is gorgeous, no matter how short or long or thin or thick or curly or straight. your height is amazing, no matter if you're tall or short or just perfectly average. you have great boobs, big and small, and if you want yours gone then don't worry because one day they will be and you won't have to stress over them. your curves are mesmerizing. your lack of curves is mesmerizing. the scars you have show your strength and the color of your skin is nothing but breathtaking. all genders. all sexualities. all races. everyone. everyone is exactly the same and everyone deserves to love themselves. i love the way your voice catches when you get worked up about something you're passionate about. i love the way you fiddle with your hands when you get nervous. i love the way that you're too stubborn to put a jacket on when it's freezing cold just because you want to be right. everything about you is beautiful. this is getting long but i just everyone to know how amazing they are. their bodies, their minds. everyone is completely 100% beautiful and they deserve to know it. it doesn't matter if your clothes were three hundred dollars or three dollars. both are beautiful. if you think nobody will ever love you then you're wrong. i know one person that already loves you. try. please try. try your absolute hardest to love yourself. don't follow popular trends just because everyone else is. if something makes you uncomfortable, don't wear it. find clothes that enhance your favorite things about yourself and thing that make you smile when you put it on. find people that make you feel good about yourself. accept yourself. be happy with yourself. and when you've done that, teach others to love themselves. you can do it, i promise. instead of criticizing yourself, give yourself a compliment. instead of tearing down your appearance with harsh critiques, let yourself know that you love the way you smile. i'm always here for you. i'm here for anyone that needs to talk. for anyone who wants to love themself but doesn't know how. i'm here for you. you look beautiful. you look masculine. you look like you and that is absolutely perfect.