heartcrossed

18.

ETHAN'S P.O.V

I lock the car behind Grayson and I as we walk slowly in the school parking lot. We're quite early but I need to see Kendall.  We haven't talk since what happened. I don't think Grayson has either. She didn't text me, but I didn't text her either because I'm uncomfortable. Fortunately though, the weekend flew by pretty quickly. 

Luckily, we have first period together so I might be able to speak with her... I hope so. I need to make things right between her and Grayson. I can't get between them... It's been awkward between me and him for the passed few days but it's okay now I guess.

''LAST MINUTE PRACTICE AFTER SCHOOL DOLANS!'' Sam shouts from the other end of the parking lot snapping me out of my thoughts. He's with the rest of the team on top of a picnic table.

I run up to them but stop halfway and turn around when I see Grayson's not following me. He simply makes a weird hand gesture telling me to go and he leaves the opposite way.

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''Get up Dolan! What's wrong with you today?'' The coach yells at me laying on the grass as I just tripped over myself. 

''Sorry coach. Just not a good day.. Won't happen again.'' I answer, lifting my body from the ground.

''Well, you better. Next week's match is really important for the whole team and you're the quarterback,'' He snaps. ''If you're not gonna be fully committed, you're out Ethan. Understood?''

I rub the dirt off my knees. ''Yes coach,''

He nods before blowing in his whistle causing everyone to stop. ''Okay guys, it's enough for today. See you all at Thursday's practice.'' He pauses, then turns to me. ''And tell your brother if he misses another practice, he's gone too,''

I nod and let myself fall on the grass as everyone exits the field. The sun is slowly setting so the sky is pinkish. I remove my helmet and shake my sweaty hair before removing the rest of my equipment leaving my in only my football undergarments. Many thoughts are racing through my head. Kendall didn't show up at school today. I wonder where she's been. It's been bothering all the day and I couldn't focus on anything because of that. I make a pile with my stuff and start running around the field. 

After a few laps, I'm exhausted so I decide to go back inside and change. I enter the empty locker room that reeks of sweat and manly no so pleasant odor. I have OCD so I hate when things are messy or disgusting.  I take a nice cold shower before putting on some fresh clothes and deodorant. I love cold shower because I actually feel the water dripping down my body unlike hot water. Grayson on the other hand prefers his water burning. Literally. I grab my bag, put all my stuff in it and leave the sports block of the school. The school is deprived from pretty much all kind of life at this late hour except for maybe rats.

Grayson is obviously gone; the jeep is nowhere to be seen and it's late. I text him to ask where he is.

E- Where are you? you missed practice

G- Sorry. Wasn't really feeling this one

E- Well you better feel next week's match otherwise coach says you're out

   - And can you come get me at school?

G- No I'm in the bath rn

E- Fine

 Seems like I'm gonna be walking back home tonight. Doesn't really bother me that much to be honest. The sky is pretty tonight so it's okay. I love sunsets. They make me feel calm and relaxed even when life is a storm. It just reminds me that another day went by and that I survived. 

I cross the main street and decide to take a shortcut by walking through the cemetery.