Do I
Eat breakfast
Or starve myself
Again? Tonight
I will write my
Suicide note
But only in
My head.
Tomorrow I
Will wish
I was already
Dead, and despite
All this I will still
Get myself out of bed.
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Me: if that mattered why'd you tell me you loved me?
Him: just because I say I love you, doesn't mean I'm like. In love with you.
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I still get sad about everything that happened. Every now and then it just hits me. And sometimes...it takes days for me to get over it.
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Friend: yeah go ahead, push everyone away because your afraid of getting hurt.
But don't
Push me away
You tell me fucking everything
You already trusted me!!!
Me: I don't care
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I spent
Two years
Telling myself
That I was
Getting better
But now I'm realizing
I'm not better
And I don't think
I can handle this
By myself anymore.
