Labeled (SVU)

Seeing Amanda

Amanda's POV.

I wake up to the door opening. Hoping its liv, I jump up just to see my night nurse. I lay back down. I haven't seen liv since she and cragen left yesterday morning. I've called her but she hasn't answered. I'm starting to get worried. I look at the clock. It's still only 6:30 am but I call Cragen anyway. "Amanda?" He asks. "Yeah it's me, have you heard from liv?" I ask. "Not since yesterday afternoon, why?" He asks, trying to hide his worried tone. "Oh it's nothin, she just hasn't been to the hospital since she left with you yesterday, and she hasn't been answering her phone." I say. "That's odd, I'll call her in a bit and if she doesn't answer, I'll go to her place." He says. "Thanks, and sorry for waking you," I say. "It's fine, I'll call you in a bit." He says, hanging up. He's right, she's probably fine. He'll call her in a bit and I'll call her later, but for now I should probably get some rest. I think to myself before settling down for bed again.

Olivia's POV.

Incoming call

Amanda

I look at my phone and turn it over. I'm just bringing her down, she needs to get better and not have me be messing up her recovery. I think to myself. She calls again 3 more times. I'll call her back in a bit, I think. I go to Casey's office so I can talk to her about the case, only she doesn't know it's my case.

Once i get to her office, I say hi to her boss and open her door while knocking on it. "You know knocking on the door while you're opening it serves no purpose." She says with a smile, standing up. She greets me at the door with a hug. "How've you been? It feels like it's been forever." She says releasing me. "You know same old, and whose fault is that? I didn't ask you to switch units." I say laughing. "You know how bad SVU can get." She says sitting back down. "Yeah, I know alright, which brings me to why I'm here." I say, sitting. My smile disappears and Casey's concern is clearly evident. "Don't look at me like that Cas." I say with a small smile. "Olivia why are you here?" She asks softly. "This is the case I've been meaning to talk to you about." I say pulling a file out of my purse, handing it to her. She opens it slowly while keeping eye contact with me. She looks in the file and shuts her eyes. Quietly closing it, she looks at me. "When?" She asks quietly. "When I went undercover at the prison." I say softly. "Liv, Why didn't you talk to me? Why didn't you tell me?" She asks. "I wasn't going to press charges, hell I barely acknowledged that it happened." I say. "Anyway, I know it was a while ago, but I got a rape kit done the night it happened." I say clearing my throat. "That's definitely going to help. You said you want to press charges now?" She asks. I sigh, "yes. I think I'm ready now." I say. "What made you change your mind?" She asks. "I saw him working at a liquor store one night. He barely did any time for Ashley's rape, I knew I could get justice for us both." I answered knowing it was a routine question. "Okay, I know you already know this but I'm going to say it anyway. You know this is going to be hard right? Have you been having flashbacks, nightmares?" She asks. "Yeah lately, I have." I answer looking down at my lap. "They may get worse. You're going to have to say everything that he did to you, in detail. Show he jury any remaining scars you may have that are visible. His lawyer will try and say that you followed him down there willingly. That you wanted something from him so you went down there with him to get it." I tear slowly comes down my face. "I know this Casey." I say. "Okay then, are you willing to testify?" She asks. "Yes, I am." She nods. "Okay then." She says smiling.

After hours of going over every detail of what he did to me, I go to the hospital. I make my way towards Amanda's room. Knocking on the door, I slowly enter. "Hey babe, how ya feeling?" I ask. "Where the hell have you been?" She asks, pain evident in her voice. "I was busy, umm I had work." I lie. "Don't lie, cragen said he hadn't seen you all day," she says, her eyes filling with tears. "Look Amanda," I start, but am interrupted. "What? You were out with somebody else, weren't you? God I knew it. I knew I wasn't good enough." She says, sobbing. "Amanda, listen to me. Yes, I was out with somebody, but it isn't the way you think it is." I try, "oh yeah? Than how was it?" She asks, wiping her tears. "I was with Casey Novak. We were going over my testimony. I pressing charges against that bastard." I say. "Than why didn't you just tell me?" She asks, not believing me. "Because you're in here because of what Patton did to you and I didn't want to make it seem like I was trying to make it about me." I say, sitting on her bed. "I'm sorry Olivia, I'm so sorry..." She repeats, sobbing. "Hey, hey, look at me." I say. "I love you, you're the only person in the world for me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before, I won't keep anything from you anymore, okay?" I ask. "Okay," she says quietly. I slowly lean in a kiss her. "You don't need to worry about me with anybody else, ever." I say. I crawl into the bed with her and put my arm around her, allowing her to lay her head on my chest. "I've never loved anybody more than you, Olivia benson." I smile. "You are the best thing I've ever had. I love you." I say, kissing her once more before we fall asleep, peacefully.

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