Labeled (SVU)

Back to the hospital

*hey guys, sorry for not updated in a while. I started school and I'm focusing on that. Hopefully I'll start updating more on the weekends. Hope you like this chapter!

I wake up to the sun shining in my eyes. I look around the room, and see Frannie on the bed next to me. I remember Liv stayed the night last night and I get up. I go into the living room and see her on the couch. I try not to wake her up, as I head to the bathroom. Trying to hold back tears, I change my pad. I put my hand on my stomach. "I'm so sorry, my sweet baby." I whisper. I wipe my tears and check my wounds. My eye is better, but still isn't good enough to consider going back to work. I go into the kitchen and reheat some coffee. Liv walks up to me. "Hey, didn't mean to wake you." I say. "You didn't." She says, kissing the top of my head. As she does so, I move to the couch. "I think we need to talk Liv." I say. "Well I don't like the sound of that, but go on." She says. "I think the kiss was a mistake." I say. "It was good, I just." I sigh. "I need a friend right now. I'm still not totally over what happened between us to begin with, and I'm going through a lot right now." I say, though it pains me. I see the tears in her eyes. "Okay, I completely understand." She says. "Would you still stay? Just for a while?" I ask. "Of course I will. I'm not happy about not being with you, but I understand it, and I will do whatever you want me to." She says. A thought comes to mind. "Well, about that. Do you think you could help me with something?" I ask. "Of course." She says. "Could you take me to the hospital?" I ask. Without question, she answers. "Yes. You want to go now?" She asks, grabbing her keys." I nod.

AT THE HOSPITAL

"Amanda, the doctor is ready for you." A nurse says. "Do you want me to come with?" She asks. I smile. "Sure."

Once in the exam room, a doctor walks in. "Hello, ms. Rollins. What're you here for today?" She asks, putting purel on. "I had a miscarriage last night." I say. Olivia looks at me, with her hand over her mouth. "Why didn't you come in last night, when this happened?" She asks. I inhale, "umm," I look at Liv. "I don't know. Guess I was too tired." I say. The doctor picks up on my hint, and asks Liv to leave the room. "You can come back in a few minutes, I just have some personal questions for Amanda." She says. "Okay, if you need me, get me?" She asks. I nod. The door shuts, and the doctor sits down. "Now why did you really not come in last night?" She asks. I take a deep breath. "I was raped a while back and I got pregnant. I didn't know I was pregnant, and then me and Liv had a huge fight. We broke up, I went home and got drunk. I was out of cigarettes, so I decided to go to the bodega down the street. A guy was standing outside my door. He grabbed me and pulled me back inside. He raped me, while another guy played with my dog." I say. "I didn't come in because I didn't want to leave my house, and risk getting raped again. Liv came over the next day and said she'd take me. She didn't know about the miscarriage until I said it to you. She doesn't know about the 2nd rape." I say. "Okay, she won't hear it from me. Do you want her to come back in?" I shake my head. "I don't want her to see me like this." I say. "Okay, let's get started then." She says. She puts the gel on my belly. She grabs the wand, and puts it on my belly for the ultrasound. After a few minutes, she puts it down. "There is no heartbeat. I'm sorry, but You are right. You had a miscarriage. You were also pretty far along, though you weren't showing. We'll have to induce labor." She says, sadly. I take a deep breath. "Okay. Can you tell Liv?" I ask. "I will, you sure you don't want her?" She asks. I nod. She leaves the room, briefly. 5 minutes later she comes back. "Okay, we should get started."

Once she's finished, I'm sobbing, holding my sweet baby girl. She doesn't even look like a baby, but I still love her so much. How could somebody made out of hate, be so beautiful. "You can hold her for as long as you would like. I'll be back in 10 minutes." She says. I spend every second, staring. Staring at my sweet baby girl. Imagining what her eyes would look like. Imagining her playing in a huge yard, with Liv. 10 minutes later, the doctor comes back. "It's time Amanda. Have you thought of a name?" She asks. "Olivia. Olivia Sage Rollins." I say smiling. "I love you princess. I'll be with you soon. Be good for me." I kiss her on her head, and the doctor takes her.

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