Bad.

Eighteen.

Ashton had more friends than what I thought. There were at least ten of them that he seemed to know extremely well and probably five others that came with them. I barely had any friends compared to him. The only one I knew was Calum. He sat beside me probably because he saw how uncomfortable I was feeling. Ashton was on my other side talking to EVERYONE. It was extremely aggravating since I didn't know them any of them. So once again I was doing nothing but drinking and making small talk with Calum.

"Are you okay?" He asked after we just finished our third group shot.

I nodded. "I'm fine." I beamed at him. Each drink/shot ate away my awkwardness. I was comfortable now.

"So whats with the tension between you two?" He nods to Ashton. He actually seemed concerned.

I raised an eyebrow. "Haven't you heard? I'm a cheater." My voice was loud, a sad tone to it. "Yepp, Niall says something happened between us a short time ago so it must be true. I mean, why believe me? Its not like we're really even together. Huh, Ash?"

I elbowed him sarcastically. He shot me a glare. "Stop it."

Calum looked uncomfortable, probably sorry that he made me open my big and too honest mouth. "Should I stop talking to Calum too? Wouldn't want anyone to think something was going on now would we?" I mock whispered.

I wasn't even mad its just that when I'm drunk I'm confrontational and when you mix confrontational with emotional things take a nasty turn. I knew I was being a bitch but I didn't care. "Is this how you're gonna be all night?"

I picked up my margarita and sipped it acting like I had all the time in the world to answer. "Maybe." I said as I sat the drink down. "Are you going to assume I'm cheating on you this whole relationship?" Before he can answer I chuckle once. "I'm sorry, we're not even really together. Are we? I mean, what the hell happened to that? I guess Justice was right about you."

He was offended and pretty pissed if you ask me. "No, I'm not. And what exactly was Justice right about?"

I got a little sad as I answered him. "You can't fall in love with someone you meet from a club. They want you for a night, not your life." It was so depressing.

Calum had wandered away while we fought so it was pretty much me and Ashton in our little bubble as the people around us conversed. He leaned very close to my face making me catch my breath. You need to breathe Jaimie. I couldn't. His eyes were smoldering with emotion. "Do you really believe that?"

I bit my lip and nodded. Have I taken a breath yet? My heart pounded loudly in my ears. I somehow found air. "You'll never trust me. You don't even love me."

"Thats a lie." He snapped quickly.

"If its a lie then, by all means, prove me wrong." I challenged.

I didn't mean right now. As soon as his lips hit mine I was struck with such an intense emotion I felt a little dizzy. Its not like I had never kissed him before but this felt different. It was the alcohol. The spark, I felt that all the time but this overwhelming desire stemmed from too much to drink and Ashtons very visible muscles. My hand desperately grabbed the back of his head to keep him close. His arms both wrapped around me. This was too intense for public eye. I wanted to leave. I wanted to leave with Ashton. I knew he'd have no objections.

Then I heard giggles and "Get a room!" and I could help but laugh. Ashton smiled as I pulled away with warm intense eyes. He was thinking the same thing I had been. Holy shit. I flushed bright red and grabbed my drink. I looked over in Calums direction to see him smiling as he watched Ashtons happiness. Why was he so concerned with our relationship? I wanted to ask Ashton but I thought maybe he wouldn't tell me the truth. There was something I was missing. A secret Ashton hadn't told me. And he said I was bad.