What Will It Take?

Chapter 5

Allison POV

I could hear the faint sound of my alarm as I wake up with a groan. As you may have noticed I am not a morning person at all. I get ready for school with one of my favorite crop tops that is blue with white letters in the middle that say 'Dont mess with me' with my skinny jeans and my white jordans. I notice that the bus is here for me so I get on and put my earphones on to listen to Melanie Martinez - Cry Baby. The bus stops just as the song finishes. I see my besties, I wave at them while they head over to me and hug me. I head to 5th period wich is AP English after saying goodbye to Red, Evelyn, Nichole, Mia and Anahi. It's funny how my friends say I talk about 'educational' stuff to them. You see my besties and I are the type that once outside of the classroom education should not be talked about, heck! Even in class they dont give a shit but we all pass our classes. Like that I passed my time in class, being distracted until I saw him. I couldn't believe it. How had I not noticed this whole time was a mystery to me. I was staring at him when I heard someone that seemed to be calling him. It was Manuel who was calling him by the name of Jason. 'Well at least I know his name now' I thought to myself as the bell ringed to go to our next class. I was getting my books for social studies from my locker when I saw Jason walking towards me. I had hoped he wasn't because honestly I wouldn't know what to say or do but as always my bad luck just got in the way. He was walking towards me so I did the only thing I could think of. I pretended I had not seen him walking towards me. Im not like those girls that would run away, I would try to stand my ground if I could. Next thing I know he's infront of me. "Hey, I was wondering if you knew where social studies is?" He asked as I looked at his eyes, there was a glint that showed some emotion that I could not catch. I realized I kept staring so I got my act together as I saw him smirk. " Yes I know where it is. I have it right now so we can go together" I told him, shutting my locker. " Ok let's get going before the bell rings Allison" Jason said. I was curious as to how he knew my name but didn't comment on it. During class I would steal glances at him since he wasn't far from my seat, we even met glances once but I turned around fast trying to not blush. I kept thinking about him as I entered my house. I went to my room and was lost in thought that I didn't notice my dad was home. Im going to tell you something more about myself right now wich will explain my life at home, it's not like those happy families. I don't have a good relationship with them to say the least. We fight often and I would like to be as strong as I imagine myself to be but I can't. Almost every time we have an argument I end up crying to myself from sadness, from anger, from stress, from lostness. The funny thing is that they never notice how much it hurts me every time. It has gotten physical too at times wich always seem's to make me less me, at least the happy and cheery one. I can seem to be the happy person all the time but that's a lie because im not. When im at home im lonely, that's the only way to describe it. I can't say im the only one that has a relationship with there parents like that and feel like that because I know im not. Me being self-conscious about my weight and how I look doesn't make it better either. I just wish I had that special someone that makes me feel happy and loved.
Did u see that coming? Im sure I wouldn't have lol. In case u want to know more about the characters since I haven't given much about them feel free to ask questions if u like. Also sorry if any of u were unconfortable for the cursing anyways comment and vote if u liked this chapter.