Parth And Niti (PaNi FF): Professionals At Work

Chapter Eleven: Epiphany.

I sat in the cab and asked the driver to take me straight to the shoot location. I was late, really late. It was 2nd Jan and late at night when my flight had landed in Mumbai from Dubai. It was all because of me and my vacation that they had to arrange for a body double... I had no intentions of staying there for a week but Dish.. She extended the plan at the last minute leaving absolutely no option for me.

At first, I had really thought that staying away from Mumbai, staying away from Niti for a week would be good but it turned out to be the most terrible thought ever .

I NEVER wanted this to happen, but it did. This was probably the worst thing that could happen to me. But this worst thing seemed to be worse only from the exterior, for every nerve in my body wanted to see only one person in front of myself and that was NOT Disha. Every organ in my body wanted to see her , hug her, say sorry a million times to her, and this was SO not done.

I was never a person to make and break relations so easily and so quickly but then things changed all of a sudden and Niti came into my life at the same time when I was in a relationship with Disha. Even with Disha, it had taken me time, but eventually I had had to realize that I actually was in love with her.... but now, all of it seemed so different. The word love seemed to hold a different meaning in my life altogether. Love for me didn't mean Disha any longer...

I wasn't in love with Disha. I was NEVER in love with Disha. Maybe it was just friendship or something more than that but not really love, probably. And this, I realized due to Niti. If I really had been in love with Disha, I wouldn't have felt an inkling of attraction towards Niti, but I did.... And now, it was not JUST attraction. It was more..

Despite innumerable persuasions, cajoling, suppressing my unnamed emotions, not even one nerve in my body found this 'not just attraction' emotion wrong. I mean, feeling something for someone who's not your girlfriend.. is that right ? If it's not right why doesn't it stop ? Really !! This one week in Dubai was nothing but sheer torture. Well, not really.. .But it'd have been better with Niti around because there was this one voice that kept reminding me of how much I was missing her around. Her presence was always something that made everything seemed lighter no matter what, and thanks to staying away for freaking 7 days, I had realized that Disha couldn't really fill that particular void in my life.

Not that Niti could... but maybe she would. I knew she said that she didn't need me around her... She had made it pretty clear, I just didn't know whether she wanted to. Just like, she had voiced out that she hated me, I just didn't know whether she actually did.

Her 'I hate you' had stabbed me a hundred times over even if I never expressed it. But she wasn't wrong in ever expressing the same. Her eyes showed pain, hurt, disbelief and each emotion that conveyed so much of disappointment from her side to me. I never wanted anything of that sort to happen, I wanted everything to stay intact but these goddamn situations upturned everything. It wasn't her mistake, it was my mistake every freaking time to lead her to feeling the way she never wanted to.

I had hurt her; I had hurt her a lot. My actions, my words had really brought out the worst in her which I never wanted but at the same time it gave me a sort of confirmation of the fact that this particular feeling was not just from my side. She felt the same, maybe more than me. But she did. And it felt good for once.

My phone buzzed bringing me out of my train of thoughts. It was her.

"Parth, I don't know what happened to us, but please can we work upon this? We're meant to be..- your kaju.."

I switched off my phone and kept it inside my Ferrari bag. I really had no intentions of replying to anyone or working upon my past relationship with her.