I slowly start to wake up from a peaceful rest. I move to stretch my stiff body, but I feel something heavy across my waist. I immediately open my eyes and see nothing but skin. What the hell? I move my head back a bit and realize I had come into Harry's room last night and ended up sleeping in his bed.
I tried to move back a little bit to give us space without waking Harry, but I failed. He groaned and his grip he had around my waist tightened slightly. He let out a sigh before opening his eyes and looking down at me.
A blush seemed to have formed on both of our faces as we realized he still had a grip on my waist and my palms were pressed against his chest. His arms slid away from me as I moved away to stretch. I heard him yawn and felt the blankets move with him.
I bent over to give him a hug before I quickly climbed off the bed. I reached the door, but before I could leave, I heard his voice carry across the room. "Jessy... if you ever want to talk to me about... what happened with... her, I'm always willing to listen," he said in his morning voice.
I nodded my head, still not turning to face him, before I turned the knob and walked out the room, shutting the door behind me. "Good morning, Jessy," Edward said with a smirk as he came out from the bathroom.
I blushed madly at what he probably thinks that happened. "Morning," I said in a small voice before quickly crossing the hall into the extra room. I walked over to the suit case I had brought up here yesterday and looked for something to wear for the day.
In all honesty, I felt like total crap today. I didn't even fell like getting dressed at all. If I had my own apartment, I would have just been lazy all day, but no. This isn't my apartment and I owe it to myself to try to get over Mack.
I pulled out a pair of black leggings and a grey knitted sweater that ended just below my bum with a white muscle shirt to go underneath. I stripped the clothes off that I wore last night and then quickly slipped on the clean ones.
I dug through my bag and found the brush that I had hastily shoved into suit case yesterday. I brushed it through my tangled hair, making it smooth once again. I put the brush away and walked into the living room where Edward was, sitting on the couch.
He moved his feet off one side of the couch so I had enough room to sit. "Are you and Harry.. um... dating? -Not that it's any of my business," he asked, adding the last part in quickly. I shook my head no. "I just kinda.. had a nightmare last night," I said in a small voice, trying so hard to hold back the tears.
He just nodded his head slightly. He looked like he wanted to ask me something, but decided against it once he saw my face. I looked at the clock over the t.v. It's barely 11. My phone vibrated and there was a knock on the front door at the same time.
I checked my phone while Edward got up to get the door. Edward was slightly different from Harry. He wore gold colored chains while Harry wore rings. And Edward seemed to like his hair up in a green beanie.
From: Ashley
I just got home. Heading over to Harry's place in a minute..
I looked up to see Ashley rushing towards me with her arms open. I opened my arms and hugged her tightly, pulling her onto the couch. She grabbed my hips and pulled my on top of her lap like I weighed as much as a child.
I buried my face into her neck and slowly let the sobs take over. I hadn't realized that I still had so many tears left over. I thought I had gotten them all out yesterday, but I've seemed to be wrong. Ashley is the only family I have left in my life now that I've left Mack..
"Come on. Let's go grab your things and head back over to my place," she said as she pushed me to stand up with her. We walked over to the extra bedroom and grabbed the few things I had brought up yesterday.
When Ashley and I walked back into the living room, me sniffling, Harry was coming into the living room from the kitchen and Edward was sitting on the couch once again. He looked concern for some reason.
I was about to ask why but then I remembered; He doesn't know about the whole Mack situation. I looked away from his worried eyes. "I'm taking her to my place now. Thank you, Harry. Really.. We'll see you guys later," Ash said as she grabbed my arm and tugged me out the door.
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Me and Ashley were sitting on her bed watching t.v. Right now, we were watching The Walking Dead. It was my favorite show ever! I felt her looking at me, but I chose to keep looking at the screen in front of us.
"Jess.." "This is a really good episode," I said, changing the topic before she could speak. "Babe, are you sure you're okay now? I don't want you to-" "Ash.. I don't want to talk about it. I just stopped crying and honestly, if I start talking about it, I'm going to end up crying again. I'm just not ready right now," I tell her as I sit myself up on the bed all the way.
She just looked at me, hurt flashing in her eyes, before she turned her head back to the screen. "Okay," she said in a small voice. I moved closer to her and wrapped my arms around her tiny body. She refused to look at me.
"Ash...! Ashley... Ashley Elizabeth James!" I said, using her whole name as I smirked at her. Her head snapped in my direction with an annoyed look on her face. "What?" she asked callously. I giggled before answering her. "I'll always tell you what I'm feeling, always, but it's just too early to talk about it. I have a lot of shit going on in my life.
"My mom is no where to be found, I don't know who my dad is, my little sister's dead, and my fiance was cheating on me for a whole year with some other woman. I kinda have a shitty life here and I'm trying not to break apart and start snapping at you," I told her in one breath.
"I know. I'm sorry. It's just... I felt like you didn't want to tell me anything," she said with a pout. "I'm just not ready to open up right now," I mumble into her body as my eyes droop closed. She nodded her head and held on tightly to me.
I just wish she understood that I don't want to talk about it. If she went through everything that I had to go through, she would know what it's like to feel depressed all the time and just try and be happy for once. She knows I have it tough, but she still pesters me about it. I love her to death though. She's my family now...
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Omg. Sorry for the late update. I've been busy. I have to go to tutoring after school now so that's less time to write. -.-' I'm going to put my other story on hold for now. (The Niall one) because I can't write all these at once.
I will continue to write the chapters, but I just won't be posting them until I get caught up with my other stories. Thank you all for reading my stories. It means a lot. Love you my sexy weirdos! :*
~Mariah Xx
