LIV/E (Rewriting)

Chapter 20

*Messers POV*

Seeing Olivia today, terrified me. Not because of everything she confessed but seeing her, seeing the queen of my dreams, leave once again, broke me even more than the first time.

We were reckless with our hearts. I, more than her, because I knew there was something she was hiding, something big she refused to tell me, yet I encouraged this facade to lion. I tried so desperately to live in that wonderfully, blooming moment.
But nothing good comes from not caring about consequences. She was dangerous, mysterious, and I loved it.

She's an FBI agent, sent to spy on my brother, infiltrate his life and learn all his secrets. Who even knows if everything she ever told me was true. If we were real. Or was it just some ploy to get closer to me and learn more about my brother.

Her eyes told different stories though. Everything else about her was so tough, her body language, the way she spoke, but those eyes, damn they were beautiful. They weren't beautiful because of the colour or their shape. They were beautiful because they held every detail of herself that was hidden away or pushed down while she portrayed someone else. They were like books that told stories about her soul and I wanted to drown in those words.

My heart was snatched from me when my parents died and ever since then I felt empty. Everything I loved to do suddenly became everything I hated.

With Liv being gone I felt numb, the same numbness that overtook me when my parents died. Watching Chloe and Wolf with each other made me smile but also cry inside as they projected everything I wanted. It wasn't to last long though, because I gave Chloe an ultimatum. She had to tell Wolf the truth about her and Liv before I do. It would hurt less if it came from her and not me. Somehow the bitterness inside of me wanted things to blow up between Chloe and Wolf just because it pained me to see people so happy, but the love between them was undeniable. I've never seen Wolf this affectionate. She somehow managed to tame the raging beast that lived inside him. Too bad it won't last, because loyalty meant more to my brother than anything ever could. Once he learnt the truth he won't spend anytime listening to Chloe's apologies which for his sake I hope he would.

Wolf dragged me to the tunnel tonight as Liv left so suddenly, her spot on the list sat empty. People who wanted that spot so desperately all banded together to drag race each other and normally in the past this would have been my most favourite thing to do, all it did was remind me of Liv. I hated her so much. All this anger just boiled inside of me, and even though I was angry, I knew that I could never truly hate her, I hated myself for loving her so much. She has me all bent out of shape and I can feel myself revert back to my old ways. I'm slipping, oh so slowly back to that hallow empty person I was before her. All I want to do is yell out for help, for someone, anyone, to help me, but there's only one person who could make me feel like me again.

After all the excitement of crowning another member on Wolf's list one person stood as the front runner. Her name was Lisa Underwood and she was no slouch. She was tall and fair with rose red lips, and her flowy brown locks lied soft on the curves of her back. I seen the cat and mouse game approaching as she glanced at me every 5 seconds like clockwork. I didn't have any confidence left in me to approach her nor enough stamina to charm her into my bed. I figured it was an opportunity I was glad to have missed. Then I saw her walking towards me. Her hips slid so slowly as she shifted the weight of her body from lengthy leg to the the other equally impressive leg. She stood right in front of me and simple said "Hey," as her eyelashes fluttered.

"Hi" I greeted.

"You looked so lonely, standing over here like a lost puppy" She stated.

"I don't feel like taking part today" I answered as I sighed.

"Why not? I mean, you won't even congratulate me on my win tonight?"

"Oh yeah shit, Congratulations" I held out my hand to shake hers.

Her eyes danced all over my body, like she was sizing me up, from head to toe. When I noticed this I rebuffed, doing the exact same thing. She was hot, theres no denying that. And so I figured what the heck.

"Do you wanna get out of here?" I asked with no hesitation.

"Oh hold on there, what happened to all the wooing? The flirty back and forth?"

"Well, I can try to woo you with my bullshit elements of seduction or we can just get on with what you and I both want" I spoke bluntly.

"Sounds good to me" She replied as she lifted my chin with her finger and left a little peck on my lips.

She walked towards my car but not forgetting to put on a show for me as she swayed her posterior. And we drove to her place where the only thing that was on our minds was sex. Which brings me to this very moment, when I sat on the edge of her bed, still empty. Like in the past somehow I thought this was going to help me, but it never did and it never will. I needed to get out of here.

I drove home as the sky began to light up. It was all too much for me. The words... the flashbacks...

"Messer I did not come here for some stupid little romance with some stupid local boy who has done this with a thousand other girls"

"Kim told me about how you took me on the exact same date that you took her"

"So I dont wanna be just the next girl in your little parade of girls Messer, going on the same date, doing the exact same thing, thats why I think its better if we just end it"

It would have been so much easier if we had ended it then. God knows she tried, but I didn't let her. I felt so guilty for sleeping with Lisa, but then again why did I? As far as I knew, we weren't together. She probably would have succumbed to the likeness of that dialtone of a person, Miles. The same one who tore her heart into pieces.

I got home and was greeted by wolf who stood at the kitchen counter drinking beer at 5 in the morning. I looked over at the sofa and seen bed sheets and a pillow trown over it.

"Please don't tell me you did it on the sofa, I love that sofa!" I cried.

"No we just had a little fight" Wolf replied trying to hide a frown from me.

"Oh, she told you?" I asked gently.

"Told me what?" Wolf asked confused.
Shit.

"Ahh nothing, forget what I said" I bushed it off and began walking to my room.

"Tell me what?" He stopped me before I could make it to my bedroom.

I stood silently.

"Oh my god, is she pregnant?" He looked at me with horror in his eyes.

"No, she not pregnant, you have very slow swimmers" I replied sarcastically.

"Well I'll drink to that" He lifted his can of beer in salutations.

And I skipped out of there was fast as I could before he realised there was still a question looming.

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