second chances | c.d | series oao

Chapter eighteen

I couldn't describe what I felt during that moment. My kiss with Carter took me back to the days where I had nothing to worry about. I lived my life as a normal teenager who was in love, thinking back I didn't even know what love meant at the time. It was a right feeling in my stomach, as if I were hurting someone.

"Hey, are you okay?" Cameron asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I answered.

"I don't know, you just seem a little different," he replied keeping his eyes adjusted on me.

"Probably has something to do with you saying how I ruined your life with someone who has changed mines very dramatically," I answered sliding of the stool and walking out of the room.

"Katherine, I'm so sick of fighting with you. Can me please just talk?" He asked grabbing my hands and pulling them up towards his lips giving them a peck.

"I hate fighting too. We're grown ups and I really need to start acting like one. But you know growing up and change is hard. I'm still adjusting with you being back in my life. I'm just preparing for what has yet to come to cause me an eternity of hell," I chuckled.

"Well we wouldn't want that. I want the most perfect life for you and if that means starting off as friends than I can deal with that," he said and I give him a slight smile.

"Okay, than as friends I have to tell you something. But you have to promise not to tell anyone cause if you tell anyone this ruins what we just started," I explained and he nodded. I pulled him over to the living room and sat down on the couch. As friends it wouldn't hurt to tell him what happened with Carter. It is our official last day here and I would like to clear some air.

"Okay, whenever your ready," he says.

"Okay, so since we are friends it's okay for me to tell you this. I really don't know how else to put this but I guess I'm just going to say it. Okay, I kissed Carter last night. I know it's a stupid thing to do since we are all just friends and everything but I don't know why I did it and now I feel like it's ruined our friendship," I rambled.

"Okay Katherine, just slow down. It's okay it you kissed Carter. I'm not hurt, but if you like him than you should go for it," he said. He is taking this a lot easier than I thought. I'm glad, I didn't want to leave a conversation with yelling.

"Okay but that thing is I don't want to like Carter. I wish I could like Carter but I don't want to," I say.

"What do you mean?" He asked with a confused expression.

"I mean, I wish I could just go to Carter because he truly is an amazing guy but I also know I can't because I spent the last fifteen years building up our friendship and dating is just going to mess that all up," I explained.

"I mean you can't control how you feel about him," he says leaning back on the couch.

"Like how I can't control how I feel about you?" I questioned catching his attention.

"W-W-what?" He stutters with a dry throat.

"You know that I like you Cameron. But I can't like you," I sighed.

"I'll always wait for you. I know one day you are going to realize that I am the one for you. I'll wait, as long as it takes," he tells me.

"You can't do that to yourself. There are so many other women out there that are certainly way better than me," I told him.

"Are you crazy? There is no one I'd rather be with than you. No other women would ever compare to you," he said. I hurts to see Cameron hung up on me, I feel as if I'm holding him back from so many amazing opportunities.

"I'm going to load the car," I smiled patting his knee before up the stairs. It feels like I've been at my mothers forever now, we should have left long ago but something about me just doesn't want to leave her behind.

"You are a little whore aren't you?" I heard natasha giggle.

"I didn't even know you were awake. How much did you hear?" I asked, preparing myself for the conversation I already regret having.

"I heard enough. I can't believe you kissed both the guys who are so head over heels for you. I'm sorry but I don't get it, what do they see in you?" She asked causing me to laugh.

"Well aren't you nice," I sarcastically added. "I don't know what to do. I love both of them so much but if it comes down to me having to choose I can't just choose one. I'd be lying to myself about how I feel."

"You might just have to choose neither of them. Kat, the only thing you have to worry about is yourself. You are too focused on what others are feeling and how they will look towards you if you don't do anything about it," she explains.

"Like Camila? I don't know why I am making this so hard on myself, the answer was right in front of me the whole time. I have to tell her and just except the fact that she might hate me for the rest of my life," I say.

"She's not going to hate you. She looks up to you and only you, you've been around her whole life and some kind of bad news can't replace you," she tells me.

"Thank Natasha. I really needed to hear that. I'm just so done talking about the negatives, let's talk about the positives," I say cracking a smile.

"Like what?" She asks

"Like you and Kian getting back together. I thought this was what you wanted for the longest time?" I asked

"I do, I mean I did until he started acting all weird and shady. He's hiding something from me and I know that's not a good start into a relationship," she says.

"Just wait it out," I say. "I'm sure it's nothing. Now help me wake everyone up and get out of here."
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Woah okay I don't even know where to start. I've been such an asshole lately for not updating in like forever forever. I just deleted the app and did my own stuff.

But I'm not going to promise that I will continuously update because my main focus is not my fan fictions. This is just for fun.

But I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter<3