I just want to feel loved

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by PeirceTheRaven

by PeirceTheRaven

Cashby
Could be triggering to some people
Don't say I didn't warn you
Alan's pov
Just another day back in the hell hole I call my home , depressing as it sounds I would rather be anywhere else but here .
My mum left when I was 5 , the beatings were too much for her to handle, but she left me here and since then I have taken her place and gotten worse than she ever did .
My dad beats me , mentally abuses me and rap.es me regularly and I'm honestly so broken that I don't want to be here anymore .

That's why I'm sat in my bathroom with my blades and my wrists , the sink filling with the red substance more and more as I go on . Blood red and porcelain white are the prettiest mix , that's what o think as I drag the blade over my wrists rhythmically to the music blasting through the mini speakers in my ears .
I start to feel light headed and that's when i freak out .

I dial a certain number that I know will help me .
"Alan ? What's the matter ? Why are you calling me at three in the morning ?"
"Austin , I'm scared , I need you to help me ... PLEASE HELP ME! " I cry , feeling the beginning of hysteria kicking in.
" oh Alan , what have you done to yourself ? I will be over asap okay ? Hold on for me please . "
I can't answer as he hangs up , he shouldn't have hung up .
I start feeling the sense of tiredness wash over me and I have to fight to keep my eyes open much longer , the Crimson still pouring out of my wrists like a river of iron flowing out of my veins and onto the floor .

After 10 minutes of agonising pain Austin bursts through the bathroom door and stares at me with wide eyes ... He picks me up and runs me to his car , strapping me in and driving me to the hospital .

Once the doctors had stitched up my arms and thighs they gave me a time in the week to meet with a therapist and then said Austin could take me home .

Once we were in the car he looked me in the eyes and asked me why I did it .
"Austin , please don't blame yourself , my dad has Beaten me for 13 years and it was too much for me . I just need to be loved and I'm not getting that ." He kept eye contact and leaned in a little .
"Oh , you need to be loved ? I can do that"
And that was when I knew that I had found the love of my life .

We have been married for 6 years now after dating for two years ... We are now both 26 and have kids of our own , I remember when we found out that I was pregnant and it only managed to happen once , but I had triplets and that was enough for us . Adrien , ana and addie. We were happy now , and to me that's all that mattered .