If Only You Hadn't Give Up

Unexpected

It's almost two weeks. I didn't go to school. I only go out to buy ingredients to eat. And of course I'll be wearing my hoodie to cover my horrible looking face. Apart from that I'll be at home, doing nothing but staring at the wall, reflecting on what has happened.

I'm starting to hate myself .
I'm starting to hate everyone else.
Whenever I go out to buy Ingredients, one or two would ask If I'm alright. Please do not ask me that, I might start to cry.

One day I went to see a doctor. He told me that I was suffering from depression. He told me things I could do to decrease the amount of depression. However, while he was talking, my mind drove off. I thought about him, my boyfriend... Or should I say my ex boyfriend. My body felt light, It felt as if I'm going to faint. Suddenly the doctor tapped my shoulder and i got back to reality.

He told me to rest at home. So I went home. I took off my shoe and went up to my room. Suddenly someone text me. It's John.

: Hey, you have not be coming to school. Are you okay?

: I'm fine

: you're lying aren't you.

: no I'm not.

: your boyfriend seems to be very moody too..what happen between you guys?

: mind your own business. You're the one that cause us to be like this anyway.

: dude, what did I do?

: ( explain)

: okay, fine. I'm sorry for that. Wait, that means you guys broke up or something?

: ...

: Hey, it's okay if you don't wanna talk about it. But I just wanna say I could be your listening ear. I know you might think It's stupid, but I'm serious about it. I felt really bad and I wanna make it up to you. Is there anything I could do? It's okay If you don't trust me..or don't wanna talk to me. I won't forced you. I'm just telling you that I care about you..every since I saw you. I don't know why but I just do. And I didn't expect all this to happen...I'm really sorry.