"You're being ridiculous?!" He raised his voice at me.
"I'm not, I'm just ...argh" I felt irritated.
It was a moment of awkward silence. Then John decided to speak up again.
"Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have raise my voice at you. But just to tell you, don't think negatively-"
"It's alright. I'm fine now. I'm going back home. It's kinda late." I looked at him in the eyes and then walked away.
He followed me to my house and then wave at me goodbye. I do the fake smile and walked in my house. I went for a quick shower and headed to bed. The depressed thoughts came back to me again, and it seems that I can't let them get out from my head. Worse still, my mind keep rewinding the scenario between me and Daniel.
My tears began to flow. I'm trying hard to stop but I can't. Suddenly my teacher call me. She asked why am I not in school for weeks. I told her , Why ask now when you can ask me the day itself. I hung up the phone, and then went down to eat what's left.
It's been an hour. I had thought about it. Maybe I should end my life. I wrote a letter that express my feelings, thoughts and then writing a thank you to everyone who has been there for me whenever I'm down with their names written on it. I also wrote an apology letter to apologize to the people that deserve it.
Sighed. Should I really do it? My mum and dad would be disappointed in me. Is it going to be worth it? Then I think again, Daniel will probably feel regret, and I want him to feel that way. At the same time I don't want to because I still love him and I don't want to hurt him even though he had hurt me.
Should I stab myself? or perhaps just hang myself. Maybe I should just walk across the road, not looking left or right hoping I got hit by a truck or something. That somehow satisfies me.
I looked through all the photos of me and Daniel. Thank you for the memories Dan. I love you and will always do. I will look after you, will protect you and make sure you're safe even if I were to leave this world.
I smile hopelessly.
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If Only You Hadn't Give Up
RomanceA girl name, Meredith, a boy name, Daniel. They were the sweetest couple In school. Like legit. Everyone was jealous of them. They were friends since elementary school. Best friends. Now they're in collage, still loving each other. Until one day, th...
