Breathless

Chapter 14

I feel so annoyed. I didn't want anybody in our business.

I've been wandering for an hour.

I go walking back into the house, and Christian looks perfectly comfortable.

"I wanna go home." I say.

"I wanna talk to you." He says.

He opens the back door.

I go out and he follows me.

"Why don't you want everyone to know?" he asks.

"I don't give a shit if they know." I say, annoyed. "I give a shit if they know without my fucking consent. I told my sisters and my cousins, they opened their fucking mouth, and now everyone knows. I'm mad because they blabbed and because my Mom brought it up in front of you. It's fucking rude as hell, and I don't want to deal with anybody. I want to go home and lay in bed and watch fucking TV till I fall asleep."

"Okay." He says.

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I left without a word to my family, but Christian said goodbye. I know I overreacted.

I started work today, and I performed a C-Section on a dog that was having trouble giving birth, and I have lots of shots and gave a few casts.

I love my job. It's so fun.

But it's also sad, because the last thing I did today was put somebody's dog down, and I left work in tears.

I'm sitting at the table, stressed, because Christian is upset with me for acting so insane last night, and I know it wasn't that big of a deal, but I literally have no friends aside from Christian, so I don't have anybody I can trust and confine in, so I go to my sisters and my cousins, and now I can't trust them.

I dial Mom.

She picks up on the fifth ring.

"I'm sorry for freaking out on you yesterday." I say before she says anything.

"It's okay." She says.

"I just, I don't have any friends, aside from Christian. I know have anyone I can trust with my secrets, and I didn't want anybody knowing about the whole thing until we were both ready."

My front door opens and shuts and Christian walks in, and he opens his mouth to speak, but he sees I'm on the phone so he silences.
"And I just, since I don't have that, I confide in my sisters and cousins, and when I found out you knew, I got pissed, because now I can't even trust them. I didn't mean to take it out on you, and I'm sorry."

"It's okay, I understand. I never should've brought it up in front of anybody."

"Are we good then?" I ask.

"We're good." She says.

"Okay."

"I love you." She says.

"I love you too."

"Okay, bye."

"Bye."

I hang up.

"Hey." Christian says. "How are you?"

"I'm sad." I frown.

"Why?"

I tell him about my day, and how I watched the life slip out of that dogs eyes.

"Well why did it get put down?"

"It couldn't walk and it stopped eating."

"Well, you put one down but you brought in six more."