My random writings

I know you dont care.

I know no one is reading this but I don't care
-Sky

My girlfriend left me saying she is scared we will get hurt. I love her still and I have told her that but I guess I have to move on. I think almost everyday about cutting again so I can feel something instead of pain.
instead of worthlessness.
instead of nothingness.
I'm asexual but maybe everyone's right maybe I just need to feel what it's like,
maybe I'll be "fixed"
Maybe I'll be "normal"
I always thought of myself as being different being a loner. I guess I forgot being different isn't allowed.
My blade calls to me more than ever.
My pills say "take all of me."
My mind says "GIVE UP!"
My conscience says "keep going."
My bed tells me not to leave.
My voices are back they are quiet.
My life is upside down.
I have only been on this earth for seventeen years and three of those I have wanted to end it all
I'm overweight so I get called fat!
I'm tall so I get call amazon!
I'm shy so I get call pussy!
I'm always sleepy because of this war in my head so I get called lazy!
I'm not lazy just tired of my head tired of this war tired of trying so hard to be happy for everyone but me.