My random writings

What is "normal"?

It's been awhile and I'm still hurting I love her still with all of my heart but I have to let go I guess but it's hard I cut again I'm supposed to tell the therapist Monday but I don't want to I skipped my meds again.
My head still screaming!
My life falling apart!
I've done many things that I'm not proud of,sexing random people just to feel like I'm wanted. Sending them things that I shouldn't just wanting to be needed I'm asexual but like I said in my first chapter maybe I need to be "fixed" so I can feel it so that society will be alright with me I've never been so confused about my gender but I know I've never felt like a girl or a boy.
I asked my family to call me sky and use they/them pronouns but I have never been so disapproved of as I was that day they still call me "Sierra" yes it's a beautiful name it just isn't me. I know no body is reading this but that's ok just need to get it all out I've been talking to someone in Singapore for a while now and I might get to meet them but I'm not sure...