Mind Of Mine Imagines

iT's YoU

"Y/n, please!" He squeals loudly as I begin to storm off into our- his bedroom.

"What do you want Zayn?" I spit annoyingly. He's put me through enough today.
"Hear me out, baby. Please." He begs practically on his knees.
Today was going so well. Zayn actually agreed to visit my friends at their homecoming party but I knew it was too good to be true.

"I've heard enough. I can't believe you would do something like that to me."
I roll my eyes which only intensifies my headache.
I remove my heels and begin to grab my bike shorts holding back tears.
•••flashback

Once we arrived at the hotel where the party was, we both were having so much fun but when I lost Zayn and began to look for him through swarms of sequin dresses and drunken teenagers, I decided to check if maybe he rented out a room or if he was with someone who did.

When I found the room he was in, I couldn't believe my eyes.
Zayn and someone else were buried under the sheets, I heard muffled free and I knew who it was almost immediately.
It was her. Carolina Joseph.
Zayn's sophomore ''summer love."

My head tells me to scream. To break down and yell but I can't, my mind is overwhelmed from the past ten seconds, instead I take in a huge breath and turned on my heel.
I hear footsteps and shuffling.

I run towards the lobby and rummage through my purse to find my keys and of course he has them.
Well, now he can use them to drive her wherever she wants to go.
"Y/n!" He screams down the hall struggling to put his foot in his shoe.

I run, I run as fast as I can.
As far as my sore feet can take me, as far as I can go till my tears blind me.
As far as I can go without completely breaking down to the point where I wouldn't be able to breathe properly, not without him.

No, I don't need him. He's just a boy, they'll come and go, he'll forget about me, I'll forget about him and I'll find my prince charming. Someday.

And it certainly won't be him.

I cross the street to the park just as it starts to sprinkle, just my luck.

I run to the other side of the park to a bench where there is an elderly woman sits.

"Missy, what're you doing in the rain?" She asks putting a shaky hand onto my wrist.

I pull away and wipe my tears quickly and between sobs I explain everything, I just lay my heart onto the table.
She tells me to leave him, to let him realize his mistakes and a few stories about her time and how she got married to the man who did the same thing as Zayn.

But I know Zayn doesn't care enough to even attempt to start something serious with me.

I ended up running the mile to our apartment, or to what's left of it.

••• flashback over

"You just don't understand!" He pulls at the roots of his hair in frustration.

"What don't I fucking understand, huh? That you cheated on me with that whore, that you don't trust me enough to even tell me where the fuck you were, that you have no solid excuses why you did it?"

By this point I'm full on raging but breaking all at the same time and surprisingly I haven't thrown myself at him and forgiven him so he can stroke my hair and tell me that he loves me so I can tell him that I love him with all my being. All that I am.

"I didn't cheat on you, y/n. She pounced on me!" He defends while running up to me to try and prevent me from packing.

"That's why you were under the sheets with her, naked." I huff and zip up my suitcase.

I sprint down the stairs and unlock the door taking my phone from the kitchen counter.

I dial Alex's number, my best friend.
"Alex, can I stay over tonight?"
"Sure, is something wrong?" His tone changes quickly.

"I'll explain later, thank you I-"
Zayn slaps the phone out of my hand.

"What the fuck!" I scream and recollect my broken screen.

"Just because you have your own damn problems that you don't trust me with doesn't mean you have the right to treat me like this. Fucking tell me to go to hell, tell me you don't love me, tell me you wish you never met me! You're shit without me, you can't function without me or so i thought."

A hint of regret and pain flashes behind his eyes and I can read his face perfectly. I'm winning.

"Y/n-" he begins, "save it, I don't want to hear it."

I begin to close the door and run off in the direction of Alex's house.
Zayn doesn't make an effort to stop me.

Tears still threaten to fall but I wipe them away before they conquer me, before they get the best of me.

I ring the door bell trying my best to get rid of the skid marks of mascara on my face.

"Hey." Alex greets with a warm smile and I feel the sudden urge to throw myself at him.

I take in a deep breath before giving in, I can't take it.
I lunge at Alex to find comfort in his hold and a sense of happiness.

"Y/n, what's wrong?" He asks worriedly.

"I- he- I wasn't enough for him."
Hearing it out loud makes me think.
After all we've been through, all the times we kissed in the rain, when I gave myself to him and only him.

"You know what, you're stronger than that and you don't need a bastard to hold you up. You got me and you got you." His hand runs down my back in comfort.

The door bell rings and I internally cower. I hoped in my mind that he'd have the heart to chase me but I promised myself that I wouldn't forgive him, this isn't the first time bit its definitely the last.

"Do you want me to get it?" Says Alex with a blanket in hand.
"No, I can handle him."

I know it's him.
My heart started beating at 1000 miles per hour once the door bell rang.

My arms filled with goosebumps.

I twist the door know slowly preparing for the brave face I had to fake.

"Y/n" he breathes out in relief.
He breaks out into sobs.

I don't respond and I won't till I need to.

"Please listen to me. Hear me out. Please."

I stare at him in disappointment.
Complete and utter disappointment.

"You are the only person I have ever, ever trusted with anything. You are the only person who has showed me to love, to forget about myself and worry about someone I can't live without. You were right, I can't live without you, I can't function without you, I don't know how."

"There's no way to explain my love for you. It is unconditional and truthful. I've loved you and only you.
It's you. It's only you. It's always been just you. No one else. Ever."
His tear drip down to his hoodie.

"I'm not perfect, hell, you know I'm not but I could be. I could be close to it. You can show me and I could change for you, to make you happy. No one else."

Silence fills the tight space between us and I don't know what to say.

It's been an emotional six months but I have to do what's best for me.

"I've tried. I really have, Zayn. But..."
"It's been really hard and you haven't made it easier. I thought it would hit you but it never did. I'm sorry you didn't notice it sooner but I do hope you find happiness in someone else the way I found happiness in you."

I close the door softly and I hear Zayns obscenities against himself when I sink down behind the wall.

It was for the best.

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