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"I just can't do it anymore!" I scream and throw my phone at the wall.

I don't care if it breaks, I just want to lose connection with everyone in my life. Zayn didn't do anything but he'll have to put up with all my problems and I certainly don't want to be a burden.

"Y/n, what are you doing?" A worried voice sounds from the doorway.

My mind decides to completely collapse in front of him and my feet go weak making me slam onto the ground in tears.

"Nothing." I attempt to confidently state, but it sounds nothing more than a whisper.

"Baby," his arms wraps around my shoulder as my mind, body, and soul melts into his hands.

I can practically hear my breathing slow down as soon as his skin touches mine. Its amazing what he can do to me.

"I just," so much has been going on that no one knows about.

My family is the root of the problem.
They expect so much from me and it's so frustrating because they dont want what's best for me. All they're trying to do is fix their mistakes from their past with me.

They think I'm going to grow up and become a lawyer or a doctor and they never ask what I want. Ever.

Zayn has so much going on, and I could be fine but I know there are people who want him.

It's so typical of me to cry over the fact that my boyfriend is wanted by so many and I could go ahead and say that he could be with anyone else.

But, he's here for a reason.

I'm scared that exams will end up killing me and that my family will be even more disappointed in me.

Really, this is all mental anger but I can't help it, because it's been locked up for so long and now that it's not, I can't control it.

Zayn can be my outlet this time.

"I don't know, I'm just so stressed."
I sob into his sleeve.

"Y/n, talk to me." He pleads softly while running his hands through my hair, instantly calming me.

"I'm, I'm not sure. I don't know how to explain it. I'm sad, scared, confused. I want to be able to just tell people what's on my mind instead of being afraid of what other think of me or what they think is best for me."

"Why didn't you tell me about this before."

"I don't know that either. I know I can trust you but, I felt like I could just do this on my own. I didn't realize that all their criticizing would get to me, not like this."

"Well, I know they're your family but don't worry about that. Worry about your finals coming up, worry about yourself. Nothing they say should bring you down so much. You've got me to talk to. I'll hear all your problems, even if you need to throw a lamp at me. I'm here for you, baby."

His words almost bring me to tears.
I seriously needed to hear that from someone that means it.

"Thank you, Zayn." I wrap my arms around his neck, "you're so sweet."

"Anything for you, princess."

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