Red Is Not Dead ( Jimmy The Rev Sullivan)

Chapter 4

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So the days were passing as I was working with guys. It was fun to work with them. We almost finished the album and I never talked to Jimmy after that day. So did he. But we always fought about little thing. One day, I was recording and the guys were listening. Jimmy suddenly pushed the recording button and yelled to me.  "You're playing it slowly, you girl. Get a little bit faster."

I sighed and pulled my hair in front of my eyes and started to play again.

Then he pushed the button and yelled again "Move your ass or I'm gonna record the bass on my own." God damn you Jimmy, do you really have to do it? I got up and threw the bass away. I went out of the room and pulled his collar. It was my turn to yell.  "Really you bastard? Then why don't you fucking do it? If you could play it so fucking good, then why the fuck did you look for me?"

Matt came and pulled me away. "Hey!" he yelled "I am so tired of your shit! You just fight about stuff all day. I don't care if you hate each other or not, you have to be respectfully to work together."

Then Brian came up with a perfect(!) idea. "Why don't you go out for a night? I mean, only you two, alone... You might get the chance to know each other."

"No!" Jimmy and I yelled at the same time and Zacky said "You look so cute." with an evil smile.

I rolled my eyes and said "I am not going to go out with him because he is a fucking mean bastard."

Then Jimmy turned to me and said "You know what Alissa? Fuck you! I am not goin..."

Matt cut his words off. "Man this is not you. You never talk to a lady like that." He hold my hand and pulled me to Jimmy. "I think Brian's right. Can't you two just do it for me?"

I sighed and Jimmy turned his head. "Please." Matt said. Ugh, does he have to be such a brother?

"Fine, Matt. I'll do it for you but he has to ask me to go out." I said. He had to do it. He is a man and men do it.

Matt turned to Jimmy. Jimmy looked at him shocked "What?" he said "Do you really..." Matt's noisy sigh cut his words off again and he rolled his eyes "Okay, okay. Alissa, will you go out tonight with me?"

"I need to think." I said and pretended like I was thinking. 

Four man yelled at me "Alissa!" I sighed "Yes Sullivan, I will."

I met him on the beach at 8 PM, that night. He wore a jean and a  white Jack Daniels t-shirt. And I wore jean shorts and a black t-shirt which says "I'm as drunk as God." on it.

When he saw that I come, he started to do something on the ground. I took the last breath from my cigarette and threw it away. 

"Hey." I said sitting next to him.

"Hey." he said and pulled a big bottle of wine from a bag. "I got wine because it's your favourite drink." 

I smiled "Thank you Jimmy."

"Look." he said putting it on the ground. "I thought about what Matt said. I think he's right. We should make up. I am sorry about what I've said before. I didn't want to hurt you but I liked you and it hurts to see you with another man. What ever, we can be friends, only if you want to." he added in a breath.

My eyes began to burn. " Are you fucking kidding me Jimmy? You told me that you don't like me, you love me and you fucked it now and it hurts too because  I  suddenly decided to fucking love you too and you make me hate you." I said in my brain and "Yeah, we can be friends." between my lips. 

He smiled and put the wine in glasses. He gave me one of them.

"Do you think we can be good friends?" he asked while lighting a cigarette.

I giggled pathetically. "To be good friends, I have to be a good person which I am not."

"I don't understand why you think that way. I think you're one of the best people I've ever met."

I sighed and looked over him. "Did I look like a good person while I was sucking a man's face which I've met 10 minutes ago?"

He pouted "Just because you made a mistake, it doesn't mean you're bad person."

"What if I did that mistake so many fucking times?" I asked.

He shrugged. "Real friends don't mind."

I put the glass on the sand and looked at him. "Are you a real friend?"

He thought about it. "You can say that. If you're not angry to me, would you like me to prove it?"

"Of course, Jimmy." I said wondering how could he prove it.

He came near me and pulled me to him. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder slowly.

"Did anyone ever do this to you?" he asked looking at my eyes, very close to my face.

"No." I whispered putting my head on his shoulder and taking breath to smell him. "Not this truly." 

He smiled with his perfect lips. "Alissa?" he said after a life time silence.

"Hmm?" 

He pulled his eyes from me. "Never mind."

I raised. "No! You have to say it if you've begun the sentence."

He licked his lips. "I told you we could be friends, remember?" he asked.

"Yes, Jimmy, it was half an hour ago." I said giggling. He giggled too.

"Yeah but I still don't want to be friends." he said looking on the ground. I was really confused.

"What do you want then?" I asked.

He looked at me shyly. "I want what I want three weeks ago. I told you Al, I love you. It hasn't changed since that day even though you treated me like shit and I don't think it will ever change. I want you in my life, and I need you, I'm sorry." 

I released my breath and thought what I could say. I've made a mistake by not trusting him. He wouldn't say this at the moment if he wasn't honest. I put my hand on his cheek.

"Don't be, Jimmy." was all I could say, my voice cracking up.

He hold my hand which was on his cheek. "I guess your answer didn't change either." he said desparetly.

I moved, not trusting my voice. I got closer to him, looking in his eyes. He was trying to understand what I was doing. I got more closer and our lips touched for the first time. 

"I love you, Jimmy. And I need you." I said while our lips were still touching.

"I love you, Alissa." he said and kissed me. 

He tasted wine, cigarette, love and home. Our tongues started to dance softly but passionately. I let myself burn with his desire and hunger and felt my tiredness has faded away with his touch. My emptiness was filled with him.