Being One Of The Brooks (Janoskians)

Chapter 10

WARNING: SUICIDE SCENE AHEAD. MAY BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I woke up on Monday morning to Beau shaking me awake which I don't mind.

Beau is the brother I can tell anything to, Luke is the one who pretends to care but really we both know he doesn't and Jai does care and he tries to help when ever he can because he thinks he knows what it's like to be me, when really he has NO IDEA.

I got up and made my way to the bathroom to have a shower and get ready for school.

After I got dressed and put everything I need in my school bag, I made my way down stairs to the kitchen to have breakfast with my brothers.

"Morning." I said to them as I sat down and stole Luke's toast out of his hand.

"Morning!" They all said back to me as we ate breakfast and talked about how well they got along with the girl's yesterday.

Since yesterday the girls and I have become really close and the boy's think so too. That's what makes me think that today is going to be a good day...

Once we all finished breakfast, I text the girls and told them to meet me at the bus stop since it's their first day today.

*Skipping until school*

So far the girls have really enjoyed Penola. I got assigned to be their guide for the day considering I'm the only girl they know. Since the girls have been walking around with me, they've realised what I go through everyday, such as: being called names, having paper, pens and paper thrown at me being pushed into lockers etc.

So it's last period and I have food tech (cooking class) none of the girls are in my class which I can deal with considering I've been doing it by myself before they came to Penola.

The only bad thing about this class is that Alicia and her friends are in my class and today we're making cupcakes.

This isn't going to end well...

At first everything was going great, until that last bell went and Alicia decided to throw the cakes at me and then a whole carton of left-over eggs.
I can tell you right now that I can take having paper and pens thrown at me and being pushed into lockers but when it comes to food, especially eggs, being thrown at me, I just lost it.

I picked up my bag and ran down the hall way and out the front door having looks from everyone and running into Jai, Luke and Tyla but I just ignored them and ran all the way home.

I had tears rolling down my face and people were looking at me like I had just killed someone.
Soon enough Jai, Luke and Tyla had ran after me and tried to stop me but I just kept running until I reached the front door.

I dumped my bag at the front door, ignored Beau shouting at me telling me to stop and Jai, Luke and Tyla trying to stop me for the second time, but failed.

I just kept going until I reached the bathroom.

I slammed the door and locked it and slowly slid down the back of it and just sat there crying for at least 5 minutes, until I made my decision. 

I can't take this anymore.

I got up and grabbed a razor blade and started to slowly slit my wrist. Carving into my skin 'I'm sorry'.