w e s l e y

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current feeling

anxiety.

anxiety; a feeling of worry or nervousness or unease.

anxiety isn't when you're nervous from time to time. everyone gets nervous, it's normal. anxiety is waking up terrified thinking that the entire world is going to go from being ok with you to hating you in just one day.

anxiety is being petrified about something that won't even happen and if it is, it could be 30 years away yet every day, you think about it.

anxiety is being afraid to talk to a person, thinking that they already can't stand you, anxiety is seeing a person whisper something into a person's ear and already assuming they are saying the worst things about you.

anxiety is worrying about everyone and everything. never forget that a lot goes on in the head of someone with anxiety.

anxiety is nearly passing out from how nervous you are when someone is taking forever
to text back or to send whatever they are typing.

I have anxiety, please dont make me talk to the cashier in the front to ask her where the bathroom

I have anxiety, make sure if you're going to talk bad about me, whisper it to the person, 8,000 miles away from me

I have anxiety, take your time with me & if I'm speaking low it's cause in my head, I'm drowning in bad thoughts

I have anxiety, dont joke around about me cause I'll take it to heart.

I have anxiety, do I wish to be like this? the answer is no. I look back at things that happened years ago and think how embarrassing was that when the people that witnessed the thing I call "embarrassment" dont remember my name. just do me this one favor? dont talk behind my back please, tell me in my face everything you hate about me, will it hurt me? idrk but it's better you telling me than me finding out, some how or some way.