i know
really surprising
no one rlly seemed to catch that i was more than depressed, more than upset, throughout these past few months i've made multiple mistakes that feel as if there is absolutely no way to make it all right, i know what ur all thinking he's overreacting. want me to be honest? true. suicide is always an overreaction because really nothing i say is going to be a good enough reason to end my life but the air is getting a little too hard to breathe & i can't overcome this sadness that's taken this dark toll on me. i wanted to just do it but i can't leave, no not without saying goodbye. every single person that has made these "notes" has someway touched my heart & i know u guys cared & i know u would've tried everything to have me stay but u can't, i was already dead inside, i've been gone too long & all that's left is skin & bones not the boy u once knew.
Broken_Pieces00 i know we didn't frequently talked but i cared about u a lot cause u were so sweet & i hope life treats u well, that's all i hope for everyone.
IsabellaDurham please, please, i can never explain how sorry i am for ending up everything i swore i wouldn't be. for not being strong, i'm so sorry. i loved u, i did & i love our daughter ariel unconditionally i'm really sad about leaving her but she deserves better, i want u to promise to find a better guy that treats our daughter kindly & keep her away from all the boys too till she's at least 38 & a half years old. i love you....
-versaceXsarah- holy shit, i hate u. u are the one person in the world who i swear can never see anything negative in life, i mean how? the world is such a shitty place & then here u are, ur always like an on-going record player about how everyone is a saint & everybody has good in their hearts and ur perfect ur like a modern jesus. i always found myself in like a safe zone when i talked to u & god bless u.
gxxdvibes- fuck, fuck, fuck. xander, i am so lucky to have someone in my life that makes saying goodbye such a dreadful experience, ur just such a great & meeting u was rlly one of best things to ever happen to me cause ur my best friend, for u. i only wish the very best, i only wish happiness, the girl, the world, the stars, the moon, the entire universe. which rlly doesn't match up to ur greatness & the extremely important role u play in my heart.
smh-kayla i know how u blame everything on yourself. listen very closely, none of this could have been stopped. none of this is at ur fault, this is mine & mine only. life has treated u so badly & so many people have done u wrong & i just hope that even for the few months that i've known u, when u think of me, u think of me positively not like an asshole. there are so many amazing memories between u & me, that's what i thought in the darkest & coldest days of these past few days of my life made my lips curve into a slight smile. i love u & everything there is to u.
_Natalie-Hemmings_ if i am being completely honest, u rlly find ur way through the strongest people. i've seen u break people down... so i thought that u weren't someone to be around with. but then i got the privilege to meet the real natalie the person u truly are & i love her so much. ur so secretly a sarahlett, along with understanding & good with words too like u always found a way to describe in better ways what i was feeling , so good that u made me understand me better. thank u for that.
thecarringtondurham i wish we were closer. i rlly do. u tried to be there for me when i admitted that i was completely broken down to u & i can never thank u enough for putting that effort of being there for also i can't apologize enough for not doing the same for u. please look after ur little sister she cares so much about u & i rlly wish i had someone look out for me the way u do for her. i'm all alone though... being on ur own isn't easy.
so to all of u on here. please don't ever doubt my love for all of u guys. i'm sorry i'm no good at explaining myself, i'm sorry i couldn't move on from this depression, i'm sorry that i've decided to end my life...
