Unexpected yet Meant to be

Chapter 3

Nikki's POV

I cried. I dont why I cried this much, even though we weren't together from the start, why does it hurt like this? I knew from the start he could never see me the way I see him.. I already know.. but why does it hurt so damn much?!

Why were you so kind to  me. Why were you always there for me especially on my miserable moments? Why do you have to be there in my worst and best? Why. why.. why.. WHY DID YOU MAKE ME FALL FOR YOU AND NOT CATCH ME IN THE END.

You know everything Alex.. I've never liked anyone like this. You made me feel like I was special in some way.. You were in my house visiting me frequently and we'll just lay in our living room.. me on your lap.. watching movies. Chatting and never getting bored of eachother. Once you leave, you text me "i miss you already Niks" 

"we were together just a few minutes ago.. but if it makes you feel better, I miss you too."

"aww. My baby sister misses me already!"

shit. i didnt see that coming.

"mm. yeah. sure. whatever."

"hey something wrong?"

"nothing"

I really wanted to tell you Alex.. I really do.. but tell me. How. How do I say this? I dont wanna risk our friendship. If you cant be mine, then I wouldnt risk losing you even as my bestfriend. That one person I can talk to and be myself without worrying about being pleasing to them or not. I can be myself without worries. I can say whatever I feel like saying. I can let my guard down. I trust you. You've earned it. All the times we spent together. Dont tell me it was all me feeling this way?

That really hurts alot Alex.. If only you knew.

"Nikki.. stop this please." Racielle said

Catching my breath.. I tried to breathe slowly.. Inhale.. Exhale..

"You okay now?" Racielle said

"mm. kinda.."

"you know I cant stand you crying there."

"what else can I do?"

"step up. tell him. atleast you can live your life without regrets. remember? that came from you."

"but what if I lose him?"

"what if you dont?

"what if its just me?"

"what if its not? See how troubling what ifs are? You'll never know!"

"Im scared.."

"atleast once its over, either you move on or get started with Alex. Both will benefit you Nikki. It'll be hard. You have to earn the courage to tell him all of these. I know how you fell for him. Honestly? I can see that both of you do love eachother and not just brothers and sister kind of love, Niks. Trust me. I observe. and both of you are playing blind. blind to what you really feel."

Made me think real hard. She does have a point. If I confess now and tell him what I really feel, and if and only if he felt the same, We'd be happy. but if it was only me all along, atleast I got to tell him. I did say live life without regrets like a million times to alot of people asking me for advice. but how come when Im the one who's supposed to do it, it becomes very hard..

"Okay. I'll tell him" I said.

"Thank goodness. after 12233267542765471 years."

I giggled

"Okay. Just give me time.. I will.."

"Take your time dearest. I just dont want to see you cry anymore."

"Thanks Bes"

"You are my bestfriend after all."

Racielle pulled me into a hug. I felt comfortable in her hugs. Like as if no matter what I go through, I'll always have Racielle with me. Im so happy to have her as my bestfriend.

"You ready to go out?" she asked me

"yep."

As we walk out the comfort room.. we saw Alex in the phone.. 

"Really? No way! ofcourse ofcourse! I'll see you then!" Alex said sounding really happy

He turned around and saw us..

"I have to go, yes I'll see you tomorrow. Take care babe. I love you too" and he hang up.

Babe? I love you too? He has a girlfriend?

"Who was that?!" Racielle asked more enraged than I am

"Sheena.." Alex said

Sheena.. sounds familiar.. He mentioned this to me already.. Sheena.. Sheena...

"Gomez?" I asked

"Yes!" he answered 

"The girl you've always had a crush on."

"Yep thats her! Turns out John told her I kind like her and apperantly told her that I asked her to be my girlfriend. She called and said she's happy to be my girlfriend." 

"BUT YOU DIDNT ASK HER TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND RIGHT?! THEN WHY ARE YOU SO OKAY WITH IT?!" Racielle asked in a pissed off manner

"Racielle.." I whispered..

"I DIDNT MIND CAUSE I LIKE HER. BESIDES, SHE'S PRETTY, NEAR MY AGE, BEAUTIFUL, KIND AND WHATS THERE NOT TO LOVE ABOUT HER! DONT YELL AT ME." Alex answered back.

The tention around and the news I just heard makes me want to cry once more. But I hold it in. No. Enought Nikki. Enough crying. You have to be strong.

"I think I'll go ahead. See you guys around." Alex said leaving

We just remained silent..

As he was out of sight, Racielle faced me to her and wiped stray tears on my cheeks. DAMN. I was crying. 

"Im sorry Racielle, I was too late.. Let me cry one last time.. And I'll be done with this." I said with a shaky voice.

Racielle just nodded, hugged me, and let my cry my eyes out.

When I calmed down..

"Lets get some ice cream!" I shouted

"I'll buy food. We'll stay at your house" Racielle proposed.

"YAY! ILOVEYOU!" I hugged her real tight

we just laughed and went to but the ice cream and headed home

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Is this for real? Does Alex really have a girlfriend just as soon as he over heard the CR conversation of Nikki and Racielle?