Exploring the Inside

Death

Death. It's strange. I can't grasp the concept
. Nor know how to deal with it. I guess most people have trouble understanding it. But only when they experience a death of someone they know. That's the thing about people. They don't know what you've experienced unless they experience it themselves. I can tell when you're at a funeral that some people genuinely care and feel sorry for you. For others, it's obvious they are there just because it's the moral thing to do. But they won't actually experience part of the loss with you.
Death seems unfair. I've recently lost someone. I don't understand because they weren't ready to die yet. They talked about plans for the future and about doing things they haven't yet achieved. Disappointingly their future got cut short. That is what I find unfair. Especially for people who genuinely want to live and not only for themselves but for their loved ones also. Around the same week as my relative's passing, there were more than a few deaths of overdose. I wish people would realize how significant and lucky they are to be alive. While they're wasting their lives away, other people are fighting for their own. Some people don't even have a choice but to fight. Others have a choice though and choose to waste it. I don't understand but I haven't walked in their shoes, so I guess I wouldn't fully understand.
Everyone always says after a death of a loved one of how they were such a great person. Sometimes I think people only realize the good in others after they die. Not me. I try to never take my loved ones for granted because I know that one day I won't be able to have the essence of them around anymore. You just never truly know when the last goodbye will be. It can happen suddenly and unexpectedly. That's why I never take goodbyes for granted. I also think that some people talk about the ones that die as great and loved because it's just what you're supposed to do. For me, I meant it genuinely. Truly, my family member was never selfish. They always were loved by everyone. People didn't just say it because you were supposed to after they died. They said it while he was alive. That's just how loved he truly was. I wish people would realize the good in others and not take them for granted and wait until it is too late.
I've come to the conclusion that the only thing about death that is certain and unquestionable, is that it will eventually happen to all of us.