I was shocked as I entered the bathroom (the door wasn't locked.) to find that someone was crying inside...
MAKI'S POV
"!! Ah!! RIN-CHAN!!?", my god, Rin was crying really hard. I never thought she had this side of her...
Then she looked at me...moments later...
"MAAAKIII!!", she quickly rushed to me and hugged me. She was crying so hard, she wanted someone to hold on to her...
I reached out my left hand to hold her, while my right hand reached for the door and locked it. It was just me and Rin in the bathroom...
"Maki...chan...sniff...I'm a bad person...I made...sniff...I made Hanayo-chan cry...I hurt my friend..."
"Rin...please...calm down..."
"But...sniff..."
I never thought this would happen. It was just like before...when Honoka said she wanted u's to disband, Nico got really angry, then I hugged her really hard, just like now, to stop her from hurting Honoka or anything...
Yes, I am hugging Rin-chan now before she hurts herself even more...
Once Rin-chan finally calmed down, I said:
"Tell me what happened after I take a dump, alright?"
"Sorry, it's my fault to interrupt your business here..."
After doing what I had to do, I handed Rin-chan my handkerchief to wipe her tears. Then she talked, she told me what happened, what she did to Hanayo, and what she felt about herself. To my surprise, she seemed to be acting just like me whenever I get angry with Nico.
"Rin-chan, let's talk about that outside. I think it will be too awkward to talk about it here."
"But...I don't want Hanayo to see me and..."
"Don't worry, I'll cover you. Trust me."
I held Rin and brought her outside the bathroom. We walked through a crowd of students, some looking at us. They're probably aware of what happened. I looked around to make sure Hanayo wasn't around.
Finally, I brought Rin to the piano room. I locked the door, and had her sit down. I made the first move.
"Rin-chan, in my opinion, that's just a normal reaction. I understand how you feel. I mean, being with someone all your life is a big deal. But no matter how close you are, eventually you'll get fed up with it."
"Really...but...Maki-chan...I shouted at her for no reason."
"I think it's because you've been hiding your true feelings. And by that, I mean you've been trying to hide all the things you did not like about Hanayo..."
"No way, Maki-chan!! I love Hanayo-chan!! There's nothing that I don't like about her - "
"Impossible. You're saying you never ever felt at least some jealousy for Hanayo? That you never at least hated her voice when she first tried singing or anything like that?"
I was talking some sense out of her. I wanted her to let out all her bad feelings for Hanayo. It isn't normal for two friends to be together for a long time without at least hating each other for a bit.
Come to think about it, two friends who fight each other more often get to know each other's faults easier. It's just like me and Nico - heck, what am I thinking? I shouldn't be comparing them with us!!
"And don't tell me you two never had a fight with each other. That's just wrong. You can never be in a relationship where only happy stuffs happen."
Rin just sat and listened, but she did not get the idea of what I wanted to talk about...
"Maki-chan...what are you really trying to say?"
"Rin-chan, you should tell me everything you don't like about Hanayo. You should express it, only then will you feel at peace."
"But I don't want to hurt her."
"You just did."
Rin felt so awkward in front of me.
"Sigh...well...I don't like her voice at first...it's true..."
"Keep talking."
"I...also don't like Hanayo's rice obsession. Honestly it ticks me off. When she does that, it reminds me of myself. And I feel like she's being too reckless, I don't like that."
"You're no different from Hanayo then. Ramen is something you cherish a lot too right?"
"....it...was...but...not anymore..."
"You don't like ramen anymore, Rin-chan?"
"...it's not that I don't like it...I just...I'm just tired of eating it...that's all...I mean, I have tried so many flavours and I always eat it whenever the opportunity is there...but...I'm sick of it..."
"Just like Hanayo, right?"
Rin's eyes opened widely just hearing that. She's comparing Hanayo to ramen?!
"See what I mean? Your feelings to Hanayo now are just like your feelings about ramen, Rin-chan."
"No...no way...I...I would never..."
"You would, Rin-chan. You're sick of her now, aren't you? You are tired of being with her, simply because it's getting boring being with her. You've been with her for 13+ years, you two are still together. And now, you're going to another school because you don't want Hanayo-chan to be your partner again. That's what you're feeling now, Rin-chan. Admit it, you realized it haven't you?"
RIN'S POV
Maki's more direct and more blunt now than she was years before. She's changed a bit too, huh?
But...everything she said up to now...hate to say it...all made sense. Have I been angsty with Kayo-chin all this time just because she was graduating? That I was hurt only beacause that she would go away?
No...more than that...I...I lost interest in her...I...actually felt joy that I will finally be free from her...oh no...
I clenched my fist knowing all I heard are 100% truth.
"....I'm...I'm a bad friend..."
"You're not, Rin-chan. It is only natural to lose interest in someone or something you're always with or see all the time."
"So it's natural for a friend to betray her friend? Is that it?!!"
It's just so frustrating. How and why should I feel this way? I don't like to treat my Kayochin as if she is disposable. Yet I feel like I want to too...ugghh...
"I betrayed her. I betrayed my feelings for her."
Maki-chan just stared at me. Calmly. Just listening to me. Her eyes looked like she has something to relate...
"You know...feelings don't last forever...eventually you will need to grow up and move on..."
"I see...is that how you feel about Nico-chan, huh?"
"...Rin...don't change the topic..."
"...so that you won't talk about it? So that you won't face it?!"
Before I spoke further, I stopped. I did not want to start blaming Maki-chan for all this.
"...ah...s-sorry...Maki-chan...I...did not mean to hurt you back..."
Maki-chan just nodded, and walked away. Before she left the room...
"You know what to do, Rin-chan."
Her sharp, purple eyes glared at me to do something.
"Do it now before it's too late...."
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RinPana: When You Say Goodbye...
Fanfiction(Alright, time for a change of ships!) She could not do it. No matter how much she tried, she couldn't... It was time to say goodbye to Rin Hoshizora...
