HANAYO'S POV
After Rin-chan made me cry, I went to the clubroom to be there for a while. I covered my mouth as I cried, because I did not want other people to hear my sorrows.
I felt so weak at this point. I did not know what to do with all this. I worry that Rin-chan would get even angrier at me if I try talking to her again.
Once my tears were gone, I noticed the empty clubroom around me. Nothing was here anymore. Posters of idols, books, cds, idol collectibles - and all of the things u's used back then to practice. They were all gone. This clubroom no longer had anything that reminded anyone of u's. This clubroom was no longer used much. Even the students who wanted to be idols did not use this room anymore.
Even though Nico-chan promoted me to be the new president of the idol club, to be honest, not much as happened after u's left. Only about two upcoming idol groups came to me. And the new idols that followed did not come to me for suggestions very much. They had their own meeting places for their idol activities.
I was reminded again - that we can never go back anymore. Everything was fading away...
"Knock, knock. Hanayo-senpai, I know you're in there."
Someone called me.
"It's me, Yukiho."
Honoka-chan's sister is calling me? I stood up and quickly opened the door.
"Oh, Yukiho-chan. Ugghh...what is it?"
"You're still crying, huh?"
Yukiho noticed I still had tears in my eyes. Did she saw what happened and followed me here? Was that the case?
"Oh...I...uhhh...I was just...."
"Hanayo-senpai, could you come to our house later after school? We need your help."
"Is it about your idol activities?"
"Yes."
"....okay...I'll help...."
"You sure? You were crying, weren't you - "
"Don't mind me!! I'll be alright!! You can count on me!!!"
"....Here. Use this tissue in case you cry again. Later!!"
Yukiho left without being too worried about my feelings. Maybe she believes I can get over this?
She seemed to be really busy lately....even busier than before. I wonder...
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Later....it was about 5:09 PM.
It was a bright, orange sunset as I walked to Honoka's house. As much as possible, I did not want to think about Rin or what happened. I have a responsibility to take care of.
But then.....
I arrived at Honoka's house and was about to knock at the door when for some reason, I felt like I did not want to open it yet. Like....I was waiting for something to happen first....
"HANAYO!!"
Suddenly someone shouted at me, and I looked behind to see who it was.
"R-rin-chan!!!?"
She was panting a bit, suggesting she ran really quick to get here. And her eyes were very serious. Oh no...is she still mad at me?
"......hey....."
"(Gulp)....ummm...uhhh...Rin...chan....I...."
"Here...."
Rin took out a container - which had golden rice inside it.
"...I know you're hungry after....you know....what happened...."
"Rin-chan....I...I don't get it...."
"I just came here to give that to you. Later...."
No. It doesn't make sense, she wanted to see me, doesn't she? Why is she leaving right now?!!
"Hold it!!", I grabbed her hand. I continued, "Rin-chan, are you still mad at me!!?"
She refused to say anything.
"Rin-chan....please....say something...."
She still refused to talk. I was starting to lose myself.
"RIN-CHAN!! SAY SOMETHING!! I AM SO CONFUSED, PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG!!!"
Rin still refused to say anything. I held her hand tightly and knelt down, I could not handle anymore. Tears went out of my face like a waterfall.
"R-rin....(crying)....r-rin, please....I beg of you...please....say something...."
Rin still refused to reply.
"....do you hate me now?....are you no longer interested in me now?.....am I no good for you anymore?....please...tell me what you feel....I don't mind if it hurts....just....just tell me...."
Then...Rin-chan quickly hugged me tight. Really really tight.
"....I....I'm sorry....Hanayo-chan...."
"Rin?"
"....I don't like you anymore.....I don't know why....I could not tell you how I feel.....I....I..."
Rin was starting to get emotional. Then she looked at me, when I saw her face I was stunned. She...she was crying harder than I did.
"....I'm a bad friend!! I'm sorry Hanayo-chan for being a bad friend!!...."
Then she covered her face with her two hands. Crying, sobbing in front of me. I never thought she was this hurt.
"....here....use this tissue...."
"...no...I don't deserve that....I'm too bad to deserve such kindness...."
"...don't say that....it should be my fault....I did something bad to you yet I never noticed it...."
"....Hanayo-chan.....just...just leave me for a while - "
"RIN-CHAN!!? HANAYO-CHAN!!!?"
In the midst of the drama between the two of us, someone called us at the house.
"WHAT HAPPENED!!? WHY ARE YOU TWO CRYING!!?"
It was Honoka-chan....she noticed what was going on between us...
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RinPana: When You Say Goodbye...
أدب الهواة(Alright, time for a change of ships!) She could not do it. No matter how much she tried, she couldn't... It was time to say goodbye to Rin Hoshizora...
