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                                ||My soul haunts me

My demons taunt me

          I can't speak
                                 I can't answer
                    I can't hold on

Tears roll down my cheecks
          in a stream
                   you think I'm weak
                                     well you're wrong!

                           I'm fucking strong for holding on

I'm fucking human to
                                                  let it all out

           I want to shout
                      I want to scream

                                      But I can't because
                you'll think of me as
       weak

Yes
        yes I know I blew my chance

                       I invited trouble for a dance

But I don't need you
                                      to remind me a
              billion times

                                                               Yes
      yes I fear when I talk to a
                                 stranger

Yes
       yes you're right this generation is
   soo "fucked up" and that
                                               I have it easy

     Anxiety feels like a
                         rope strangled around my
                                                             neck

                                      Not letting me live
                not letting me have the
satisfaction to die

      Yes
yes it's all
                      "in my mind"

          You don't have an idea
                                   on what a mind can
hide

                       It doesn't let me breathe
it doesn't let me
      suffocate enough to
end

               It tortures my soul
my soul cries scarlet
                                                  red rivers

                       My body entangles itself in
              self destruction
                                           blue exteriors
black interiors

          Yes
  yes you're right I will have a
                         hopeless mediocre life

         Yes
                 yes you're right
     I'm not capable of
                                     anything or anyone

Yes
                                       yes you're right
         the cruel world will eat me
alive

                             Everything will not be a
               Disneyland ride.

                         A scary roller coaster
           but hey!
     I was never afraid of heights

              I'd rather be eaten by the world
          then my own fucking self

                                              Yes
                   yes you're right
to not trust me anymore

                           Yes
yes you're right
                                 I should just give up
            as you have given up on
me

                          But I can't
I fucking tried
                                              my mind is a
never ending game of dice
               named life

                           There are two players
       Sad
and
                       Happy

                                  The game is biased
         Sad wins
                          it's daily life

   Happy wins
                          my mind makes me guilty
                   it lets Sad win
        again

This endless cycle
                     people say equality is only a
"concept of mind" it doesn't
                 exist in real life

                  Well they are wrong
equality is
                   neither
      virtual
                                 nor
                real
                 it doesn't exist!

                           It never ends in tie
                       if it does
I'd call it
                                                            death

But then too
life
       dies
for
        death
                                                              death
                                            never
                           lives
             for
life
           where's the equality in that?

                       My mind
       median between the
                     sweet lie
            and
                      bitter truth
                                   death being the lie

  It pushes me to the
                                   giving up limits
and pulls me up
                           enough to be right there
          stuck in the edge

                             Yes
                       thank you
                                        Thank you
for telling me worse about my life
                  but know this!
        
        My mind is capable of worst||

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