Fates | Akutagawa X Reader X Dazai: Bungou Stray Dogs [HIATUS]

Chapter Two: Suicide

How long has it been?

A year?

The day everything got taken from me.

Now that I think about it...

I don't even have anything anymore.

Why am I still here?

No one cares about me.

No one even knows me anymore.

I walk into an alley with my hood up as the sudden rain starts turning into a storm. I sat on the ground, laid my back against a fence and put my head into my hands, letting tears fall.

This was a daily routine for me since I left the Port Mafia. Occasionally some people would see me but they don't just walk away. There was one time when someone asked if I needed anything but I said no.

I regreted it.

I wanted a home. Food. A family. Someone to care about me.

I... missed the attention he gave me. On missions, he would take me along with Higuchi to "learn" how to fight. I thought it was because he cared, but...

The more I think about it, the more it depresses me.

I raise my head and let out a sigh. Something shiny caught the corner of my eye. I slowly walk up to the end of the alley where it was placed.

A knife...?

Maybe... it's a sign...

I slowly took the knife and observe it. It looks worn out, with dried blood on it. I started thinking about the pros and cons.

pros:
the pain will end
i can finally leave this world

cons:
...

My grip on the knife tightened and I slowly lift it up, aiming at my chest. I closed my eyes and prepared myself for the pain.

"What are you doing?" I hear someone say as I felt the tip of the knife touch my chest.

I slowly turned around. A man with brown hair up to his shoulders stood there with a confused face.

"Why do you care?" I stated more than asked and stared at him coldly, trying to intimidate him so he can leave.

"A... Are you committing suicide?!" His expression changed to a happy one.

"..?"

"Ah! You are!! Why do it this way though!? Come with me! Together we can commit a double suicide with no pain!"

My eyes widened. This man is insane... What the heck? I need to get away from him; there is no way I am dying with some pedophile.

I wiped the tears and rain falling down my face as I prepared to take off. I started running but ended up bumping into someone in less than five seconds.

Damnit, I should've taken my hood off, (Y/N) you dumbass!

I noticed that I had bumped into the man. I started freaking out and tried getting out of his grip.

"Please let me go!!! I don't want to die like this and-"

I finally got a clear look on the man as I was near him.

"Dazai..?"