Fates | Akutagawa X Reader X Dazai: Bungou Stray Dogs [HIATUS]

Chapter Eight: Dazai

(Y/N) POV

I woke up unsure of the time. I moved my eyes to the window and saw that the sun was still down. I sighed and closed my eyes for a couple more seconds until I decided to go outside.

There was a park nearby with a river so I decided to go there. No one was around but a couple of cars passing by every now and then.

"Join us once more."

The words kept playing again and again in my head as I watched the river's water flow.

Had he only asked me because of my ability?.. Did h-

"Hey." I heard a voice and turned around in shock.

Dazai.

"Why are you here so early? Do you know that it's 4:30 AM?" I was too tired so I ignored him and looked back at the water.

Did he only take care of me all those times just because of my ability? Was he just using me?

"What's wrong?" Dazai asked again. I can see from the corner of my eyes that he had a sympathetic look.

"Nothing." I said flatly, my mouth twitching. I was about to cry but I didn't know why.

I heard him mumble something angrily and he grabbed my wrist forcefully. "Hey!" I put an annoyed face on and saw he had the same expression.

"Tell me. Now." I looked at his eyes and saw worry through his glare.

Does he really care?

I don't know what to believe.

I felt a tear fall from my eye. Dazai released his grip on my hand. "I'm sorry I didn't mea-"

"It's not your fault." My voice cracked.

"You were close with... Aku..tagawa right?" He widened his eyes a bit and nodded slowly. I know that his eyes widened because I would always call Akutagawa "Aku-chan" but this time, I didn't.

"Did he only... take care of me because of my... abilities? Did he know that I would be like this?" My lips started twitching more.

"Ah... That's what you're worried about."

This time, it was I who nodded slowly.

"Ye-s" I felt all the tears I've been trying to hold in go.

Dazai hugged me.

"Why? I feel so stupid! I can't believe that that's all he wanted me for! I thought he actually cared about me..." My face was buried in his chest as I kept crying and yelling.

My heart...

It hurts so much.

"I'm such an idiot, I can't believe I actually thought that I was usef-" My mouth got cut off with the feeling of something soft.

It took me a while to process what was happening but Dazai...

was kissing me.

I stared in shock looking at his eyes that were closed while he still had his lips on mine.

He moved his face away from mine and I still had the same expression on my face.

"Don't say those things about yourself. You're perfect the way you are." He smiled and held my hand.

I took my hand away from his and his smile faded.

He narrowed his eyes but before he was able to speak I embraced him.

I could tell he was smiling as he hugged back.

"Thank you." I said.