Adopted by the shaytards *COMPLETED*

Depressed

Blakes POV
**TRIGGER WARNING **
I lay in my bed wondering why I should even live without Annie. My life is so so bad. I want it to end. I had my music blasting through my beats. I wish I had someone to hold I thought. Zeke came in my room and lay on the floor below my bed. I got up and went to my parents room. I needed something to take the pain away. I didn't know if I wanted to do this or not. It would take away the pain. The pain of not having her. Her she was my everything. The reason I woke up in the morning. I opened a cabinet and there it was a razor. Was I really gonna do this. Why not I thought. I have nothing to lose. I took the razor and went back to my room. I carefully popped the blades out. I looked at the silvery shine of the blade. It would soon turn Crimson colored. I waited a moment and finally convinced myself just to do it. I dragged the blade across my arm leaving a nice thin blood line. I cut again and again and again until I had about 7 cuts in my arms. I rinsed the blood off my arm and the razor. I then took a little box put the razors in it and stuck it in my cabinet. I put on a hoodie and continued like nothing happened even though on the inside I was dying. Mentally. The relief that came from cutting was amazing it was addictive. Like drugs. My drug was cutting. I woke up the next morning and cut some more. Just a few times. I cleaned off the blood and put my blades away. I put on a long sleeve t-shirt and joggers. I put my hair up and left it. I put on a few bracelets just to make sure and then went to go get breakfast. I ate up as fast as I could and then left. I barely said a word on the bus ride to school. I acted like I had been. Like my usual self only a little bit more quiet. All I had to do was keep my sleeves down and I would be fine. I would hide what I had done to myself. Even though it was miserable the pain from cutting was amazing. It made all my worries fade away. I minded my own business most of the day and kept my head down. Everyone thinks that it is normal for me to be quiet because Annie just died. What they see on the surface is not me.

Shays POV
Blake has been a little of lately. He has spent a lot of time in his room. He doesn't really talk much just kinda does his own thing. I guess it's him getting more mature. I hate to see him grow up so fast. It has been almost 7 months since we adopted Blake. He has changed so much it makes me sad. When he came home all he did was sit on the couch and watch football and then go to his room. He stayed there until dinner and went back as soon as it was over. I was almost getting suspicious. He usually wants to hang out. I brushed it off. Maybe he doesn't feel good i thought. I hope. I hate it when my kids aren't themselves. I waited until he was in the shower and went into his room. He takes really really long showers.  I walked into his room and sat down in his desk. Looked around to see if anything was there. I didn't see anything after a minute or two and decided to leave. But when I was leaving I saw a box. Underneath his dresser. I pulled out the box and opened the lid gingerly. I was afraid of what I might find. Blake had been acting different. I never thought he would harm himself. He had mentioned his parents had som mental issues like chronic depression. I noticed the hoodies and the bracelets. It. All of it the memories of knowing people who cut. Knowing it was so hard to get them to stop. I left the box. I don't know why. I just felt like I should leave it. I put it back and left. I went into my office and layer in my hammock. I feel kinda bad. How long has he been doing this. 1 month 2 ?  I don't know. That's just it. Cutting is a sensitive subject for me. My bestfriend cut when we were in 8th grade. He eventually commited suicide. I didn't want that to happen. I loved him. I sometimes wondered why I was so drawn to him when we went to adopt. All I know is I have to do my best to help him. I just hope I can without......

AN: sry it took me a while to update not ya know intense 😹👌🏼